Update 4/20/26 I got some peace to stop my fast this morning. I was becoming so physically weak. I wasn’t eating properly to sustain myself. I ate a lot of Shredded Wheat Cereal because that is all I wanted. Feeling better now. Blessings So liquid fasting breakfast, stopped drinking coca cola and stopped eating ice cream, has left me feeling un-spiritual for certain. I don’t remember now when I started. Seems like Wednesday or Thursday after Resurrection Day. I am more exhausted than ever. This is entirely my fault though. I ate cereal for several days. It is all I wanted. More sleepy now than just driving, it is a damper on my body and in my body. I feel tired, despair in the fact that I must stay were I live even though it affects me in a negative way. Here is the consistent drive in the morning to work. On my birthday, the 14th, It took me two hours drive-to work because of car accidents. I started on the desperate journey to find a home closer to work. Looming over about twenty apartments on The Lists and Zillow each day and visiting two apartments each day at least. I look tired and feel I am sleep walking. I just told everyone I am just tired from driving which is true. Fasting, praying and reading the word, not all that for me. I wanted it to be so much more spiritual than it is for me. I feel bad and wore myself out looking for an apartment and working. Not sure if you all fasted for a while before? The good thing is, I stoped the flow of a curse word at the first syllable two times this week. That is the only curse words in this time frame so far, that tried to sneak out while speaking. This is the whole point of my fast. So yea👏 To purge out the auto draft of a curse word when I want to get a point across that I am serious ❣️ I ate some meat the last two days which helped a lot. I have to muster up some energy to move half my stuff back into the house today or tomorrow. I planned out where things are going and my coach mentioned going live in the community instead of writing posts.

I am not moving to Houston. All three, various income possibilities, doors closed. I still have half my belongings in storage. Long story on this one. I am sure I will use the example in a future course. Since my home is half-full, I am taking the opportunity to create all the studio spaces that I need. I am setting up my recording space backdrop for my videos for YouTube, Courses for Skool and maybe Skillshare. Still have a lot of work to do. Will get the rest of my things from storage next weekend. Clarity of mind to set this up and plan for upcoming recording space. In process. I am so Grateful, day 7 of liquid fast. Can’t wait to eat in 10 minutes. This is working. The main goal is, to stop releasing unintentional curse words. I work with felons just leaving prison. Curse words are a language but it doesn’t belong in my heart or mouth. I haven’t been able to stop when I have any type of emotional response. It is implanted in my deepest parts since 13 years old. I decided to pray and fast and keep the flow of gratefulness going. The benefits are exceeding what I am asking for. Getting some breakthrough at work as well. My groups are truly shifting. I am more animated as well in order to keep their attention. About 32 men of various ages and various levels of crime. Various lengths of incarceration. I am staying awake driving. My heart is opening for more joy. I am less tired, more alert. The backdrop is my intuitive art processing grief for several, multiple people and multiple times. Different mediums with different expressions. Just some small persona work that is very meaningful to me. No planning. Some of the message is disturbing as in childhood trauma that just flowed out of nowhere. Others are grief from loosing two of my four children. My planning for art and grief courses are developing nicely. I hope some of you will begin sharing where you are at with your artwork and or process of grief work. Blessings Renee Oh,👏 I will be working overtime for a while. Yes, it will take more of my time. But, I will be able to pay for my living expenses better.

Liquid Fasting up to 12:00 PM at 3 days in I am sharing my process with this community. Vulnerability is a value that I cherish. Routine: Walking my dogs early in the morning. My eyes seem to be noticing my surroundings. We are walking into the curb and my fur-babies stop multiple times along the way as usual. I look up and notice the repetition of lights on the third floor of a building across the pond. I saw them clearly with intensity of interest and feeling of awakening. I looked around at all the repetition around me and felt excited to take photos. I praised God for opening my heart and eyes to see His creation again. The elements and principles of art have been everywhere but I was grateful for the trees, water, birds, loud frogs and flowers. I notices all the textures but didn’t have an ounce of value for repetition. I was set for my day driving an hour to work and stayed awake the entire trip. Grateful and Thanksgiving in a new level of experiencing life around me. Sights and hearing became more alert.

Below are pictures of some plants in my garden. There were 6 garden areas that I loved so much. So very much. The longest time of home security to at I have ever had is my home in Destin Florida. I was a REALTOR and got a good deal and a commission on the purchase of “our” home. We spent 9 years in this home. I had a studio full of art supplies of all kinds. My focus was on clay. Kiln, potters wheel, extruder, clay recycling area, hand building area also. I also worked in glass and silver clay with a kiln for this. I was a manager/medical assistant/coder and biller at a Pain Management Surgery Center for 7 years. I was getting my masters degree part time in Counseling Psychology for 4 years. All of This, even though my inner anxious pain was severe, I ignored that. I won’t go into those details here. Everything came to an abrupt end when my husband strangled me twice in an attack defending his affair. I couldn’t afford to keep my home and pay him out 50%. Not only did I have to move, but this made a good time for my EMDR session my counselor was waiting for. Since I was a counseling student wanting healing but also to learn how to counsel from her, it was hard to drop in for the deep session. The results of that was so traumatic, my mental health was challenged and I had to take a break from school. Much happened, but I returned to complete school after six months. Facing homelessness became a reality every month. This was in 2012. The apartment home I live in currently is the first home that I feel so good and safe in completely by myself and my two dogs. So when instability came knocking on my door again, I felt like, I knew it, I finally love my home and hear it goes again. So, I looked for another apartment for the past two months. The doors are closed. Yesterday the third door closed. The Lord let me know, my current home is the safest place for me. He is my provider. The doors is open to stay where I am. But also, The reflection time over the Resurrection Weekend found me in the state of realizing how rebellious that I truly am inside. Independent and rebellious. He showed me this from his training me at work and through this search for a new apartment in Houston.

Blessings for your week❣️ May you find peace, grace and favor in every need you have as your request finds the His of God and His Heart for your life. He will never leave you or forsake you. His Life Giving Spirit is in you and all around you in your every moment. You are not alone. Blessings , Renee