Update 4/20/26 I got some peace to stop my fast this morning. I was becoming so physically weak. I wasn’t eating properly to sustain myself. I ate a lot of Shredded Wheat Cereal because that is all I wanted. Feeling better now. Blessings So liquid fasting breakfast, stopped drinking coca cola and stopped eating ice cream, has left me feeling un-spiritual for certain. I don’t remember now when I started. Seems like Wednesday or Thursday after Resurrection Day. I am more exhausted than ever. This is entirely my fault though. I ate cereal for several days. It is all I wanted. More sleepy now than just driving, it is a damper on my body and in my body. I feel tired, despair in the fact that I must stay were I live even though it affects me in a negative way. Here is the consistent drive in the morning to work. On my birthday, the 14th, It took me two hours drive-to work because of car accidents. I started on the desperate journey to find a home closer to work. Looming over about twenty apartments on The Lists and Zillow each day and visiting two apartments each day at least. I look tired and feel I am sleep walking. I just told everyone I am just tired from driving which is true. Fasting, praying and reading the word, not all that for me. I wanted it to be so much more spiritual than it is for me. I feel bad and wore myself out looking for an apartment and working. Not sure if you all fasted for a while before? The good thing is, I stoped the flow of a curse word at the first syllable two times this week. That is the only curse words in this time frame so far, that tried to sneak out while speaking. This is the whole point of my fast. So yea👏 To purge out the auto draft of a curse word when I want to get a point across that I am serious ❣️ I ate some meat the last two days which helped a lot. I have to muster up some energy to move half my stuff back into the house today or tomorrow. I planned out where things are going and my coach mentioned going live in the community instead of writing posts.

I am not moving to Houston. All three, various income possibilities, doors closed. I still have half my belongings in storage. Long story on this one. I am sure I will use the example in a future course. Since my home is half-full, I am taking the opportunity to create all the studio spaces that I need. I am setting up my recording space backdrop for my videos for YouTube, Courses for Skool and maybe Skillshare. Still have a lot of work to do. Will get the rest of my things from storage next weekend. Clarity of mind to set this up and plan for upcoming recording space. In process. I am so Grateful, day 7 of liquid fast. Can’t wait to eat in 10 minutes. This is working. The main goal is, to stop releasing unintentional curse words. I work with felons just leaving prison. Curse words are a language but it doesn’t belong in my heart or mouth. I haven’t been able to stop when I have any type of emotional response. It is implanted in my deepest parts since 13 years old. I decided to pray and fast and keep the flow of gratefulness going. The benefits are exceeding what I am asking for. Getting some breakthrough at work as well. My groups are truly shifting. I am more animated as well in order to keep their attention. About 32 men of various ages and various levels of crime. Various lengths of incarceration. I am staying awake driving. My heart is opening for more joy. I am less tired, more alert. The backdrop is my intuitive art processing grief for several, multiple people and multiple times. Different mediums with different expressions. Just some small persona work that is very meaningful to me. No planning. Some of the message is disturbing as in childhood trauma that just flowed out of nowhere. Others are grief from loosing two of my four children. My planning for art and grief courses are developing nicely. I hope some of you will begin sharing where you are at with your artwork and or process of grief work. Blessings Renee Oh,👏 I will be working overtime for a while. Yes, it will take more of my time. But, I will be able to pay for my living expenses better.