After watching today's Master Class I'm aware of how much subliminal worry I carry around. Worry/fear restricts breathing and withholds life force. As much as I love yoga and breathwork, I still notice a default mode of constricted breathing whenever I'm doing without Being. It's a subtle, tricky way the ego convinces me to continue to carrying the burden of worry 'to keep me safe' . This keeps the illusion of the separate self alive — and is very exhausting! Today I forgive myself for believing in worry as real and necessary. I offer up the illusion/burden of trying to live life as a separate self full of fear. I breath in and out God's Love. It fills me, lifts me up and is who I AM

Today we will practice stepping away from every way that you have and do look with madness. Every idea, judgment and perception that keeps you in hell. The thinking mindsets do you no favors. Their narratives, moment by moment, make assumptions about your conditions, survival, and needs. These thoughts tell you that there is one ‘normal’ way of interacting within the world and succeeding; and yet, all perceptions are based on a lie. If you see separation among bodies and conflict between minds, you are keeping yourself in hell. If you identify as a body-time-self and believe that peace comes only from being agreeable to whatever errant and struggling conditions the world offers, rightly for your comfort and success, you are not in Holiness; you are in hell. Yes, I understand that you, as a body-time-self, do not see these experiences as choices. You ‘didn’t choose to be born.’ You are not conscious of your judgments or decisions most of the time. You have no personal control over war, death, victimization, and crimes against humanity. Thinking seems to ‘happen all on its own.’ Trying to silence the thinking mind seems much more impossible. There are many moments where you recognize that striving for goals in this conditional world seems merely necessary but far from satisfactory. Yet, what else are you supposed to do? Give up a job? Be unhoused? Deny yourself material comforts, medical care, relationships? No. This is not the type of behavior that I ask you to choose for realizing Holiness. The only denial we must accomplish is distancing oneself from how these choices are used to define you. The thoughts are what keep you in hell and nothing else. The attachments, striving, self-exhaustion, disappointment, rationalization, anxiety, and terror are the cause of your sole cause of misery. A house cannot cause you pain. A house is simply a structure. However, the distaste of the structure, jealousy, and longing for a different type of house, cursing your perceived limitations, will cause much agony. Accept the ‘four walls’ being as they are, and joy is known. Similarly for relationships, jobs, vehicles, children, any object, or defined circumstance, etc. The objects or people themselves are not the problem. The problem is only the thoughts around these mere scenes and players. The problem is all the ways you curse the darkness instead of choosing the Light. See through the eyes of Holiness and no matter the size, shape, behavior, words or content, there will be gratitude. With stillness beyond thought there is only Peace.

God is the Light in which I See is a lesson in meditation. This practice begins the disciplining of the busy mind, the one that is almost too distracted to write down these words (laughter). Nonetheless, you are coming along well. Even just a few brief minutes of this lesson will do you well. The idea overall is to help you recognize that there is a way beyond the thinking mind and a way beyond this personal hell. As we have shared before, the thinking mind seems to instantly produce distraction in the form of judgment, beliefs that tempt you away from Peace, self-critique and many other forms of self-torture. Any distraction from Peace is equal in its effects to return you to the mistaken identity, no matter how brief or mundane in nature (like wanting to eat dinner while you journal). Yes, Beloved, anything apart from Truth is NOT Truth. Pure and simple. The sooner you can accept this simple Teaching, the easier committing to Truth will feel. Today’s practice will do wonders for the desire to be at Peace, once accepted. As noted, the ‘untrained’ will find today’s lesson to be challenging because there is little time that you have spent in Peace and do not actually recognize Peace as purposeful. In fact, the thinking mind determines Peace to be threatening. Why? Because turning towards and accepting Peace leads not but to the utter destruction of the thinking mind. The thinking mind has had humanity in its misbegotten grasp for millennia! Time had been the measure of this reign and as the years pass by, not a single solid awareness of Self has won out. Ah, yes, many a master has come and gone.. come and gone.. only to find their teachings shared and not completely replicated. Let’s be direct, if any actual master had ultimately succeeded, there would be no reason to be writing these words or perceiving to be where you consider yourself to exist. Don’t get Me wrong, I’m not saying that the best known ‘spiritual masters’ of and beyond this conditional world are ‘failures’ no, this is not correct. All that I am saying is that indeed there remains work to be done. There are many who are more committed to disharmony than Peace. There are many more, a myriad more, who are simply afraid. This is not a judgment or condemnation in any form, only a recognition.

Today’s lesson is about helping you set your mind again in the ‘right’ direction. In time, you have been long confused about Who You Are. Truly, this state of imagining has not come to ultimately harm You; while, this mistaken identity, does not serve you. As part of our unlearning together, most of our time will be utilized for better use of your time. Here, we will take the cacophony of misbegotten ideas of Self and Source, introducing seemingly new designs for your more Peaceful Being in their stead. The Truths of which I Know are not new. In fact, These Thoughts are Really the ONLY Thoughts that Exist. The time you spend fooling yourself is only time not well spent. That is all (and confusion enough). Soon we will arrive at the recognition that essentially there is no time at All. However, we cannot begin in this unlimited mindset, for such a Fact will only send your thinking mind and practicing mind into deeper uncertainty. Again, I can only be kind in our gentle healing together – as should you be kind in the practicing of these newly regained lessons to self and ‘others.’ We sit within the paradigm that you seem to accept as your ‘reality’ only to use this perception to your better Awareness and joyful Being, rather than the continued conditional experience of the current situation. We begin by simply noting together what dreams can serve, which ones surely cannot serve, and which have not served you well. By simple recognition, we open the door to choosing again. Today we will look at the ideas which seem to be held most intimately by a Self unknown. These self-definitions are held by a thinking mind that is not personal, but one that uses the personal self to play them all out in earthen forms. If you believe you are lonely, the experience around your body-time-self will display loneliness through many expressions and judgments. This ‘evidence’ becomes seeming ‘confirmation.’ Then the cycle continues of self-judgment and despondency. This is why one can say that a person can be lonely in a room full of people. This is why many a person who ‘does not look depressed’ somehow manages to choose bodily self-destruction. The mind with which you wish to see will always show the evidence that this distorted mind perceives.

Running ACIM Lessons 1-30 like an impersonalization of error practice for a negative self-identity imprint to release into the No-thingness from which it came! Lesson 1: Nothing I see in this condition called negative self-identity has any meaning. This condition/illusion/projection called negative self-identity is a neutral thing. It is an illusion w/ no power. Lesson 2: I have given everything in this condition called negative self-identity all the meaning it has for me. Lesson 3: I do not understand anything I see/think/feel around this situation called negative self-identity fears, negative self-identity illness, negative self-identity avoidance, negative self-identity healing, negative self-identity projections. Lesson 4: These negative self-identity thoughts do not mean anything. Lesson 5: I am never upset for the reason I think. (I think my separation is the “negative self-identity” thoughts but this is only the trigger for something deeper). Lesson 6: I am upset bc I see something that is not there. Lesson 7: I see only the past (thoughts, beliefs, conditioning, emotions, stories). Lesson 8: My mind is preoccupied with past (negative self-identity) thoughts. I seem to be thinking about__(all these negative self-identity thoughts/negative self-identity identifications/negative self-identity projections/name all the thoughts). My mind is preoccupied with past thoughts. Lesson 9: I see nothing as it is now. I see only a split negative self-identity mind. Lesson 10: My negative self-identity attack thoughts do not mean anything. Lesson 11: My meaningless negative self-identity thoughts are showing me a meaningless negative self-identity world of fear. Lesson 12: I am upset bc I see a meaningless negative self-identity reactive world. Lesson 13: A meaningless negative self-identity reactive world engenders fear. Lesson 14: God did not create this fear-driven negative self-identity story and fear thoughts of a meaningless negative self-identity reactionary world.