Wondering if this would be safe place for healing deep trauma or if I should have a higher level of healing before joining ? I still get flashbacks & still in a lot of pain and know I need help but still getting heavily triggered by ACIM concepts because my ex justified horrific abuse using these ACIM concepts ….. It’s a catch 22 because I actually resonate with the core underlying message of forgiveness, everything either being love or a cry for love , seeing the soul/spirit of a person not seeing myself or others as a body. But at the same time very overwhelmed by the complexity of the language & heady/intellectual concepts Talking about concepts make me feel further away from love and the truth of what’s in my heart So I’m scared to join and was wondering if anyone here has been in the group and thinks it would be a safe place for people like myself recovering from trauma ? ?? I’m not looking to have my delusions or false beliefs fed, but I’m also not looking to be expected to be at a level or place that I am not & not looking for heady conversations about these concepts …..I’m looking for love and support in my healing and to be accepted where I’m at while encouraging the truth of who I am
Do you ever sit in stillness and become aware of how seemingly huge the “space” of your awareness is? It’s so much more vast than the little words or interactions we seem to try to convey it through. I sometimes say what is this space and what the hell is going on?! Is this a metaphor or a reflection of what I am? Is this the real world I’m peaking into? There seems to be no conflict there. Just vastness and open floating if you will?…. As I seem to witness the happenings that were here before but through a different perspective there seems to be a neutrality to what’s going on. I can see projection at work, good guys and bad guys in the way others and thoughts seem to work within this space but I seem to experience the nothingness of them. I ask is this my mind finally choosing the holy spirits correction for my wrong minded thoughts? Is this the passing of something or the rebirth of something new? I only pray forgiveness shows me the way to truth as I know it will through Jesus’ vision of oneness 😍🌈🌅. I seem to “see” so differently from this awareness that’s so vast and so different from where I seemed to “see” through before. It’s not from my bodies eyes but beyond…. I’m just going to get lost in this awareness and experience what I am as forgiveness shows me. My cup is empty. Thank you all for being my mirrors in this vast illusion 😘😍🥰❤️🌅🙏🌈🌸🤪
1 Forgiveness is a choice. I never see my brother as he is, for that is far beyond perception. What I see in him is merely what I wish to see because it stands for what I want to be the truth. It is to this alone that I respond, however much I seem to be impelled by outside happenings. I choose to see what I would look upon, and this I see and only this. My brother's sinlessness shows me that I would look upon my own. And I will see it, having chosen to behold my brother in its holy light. 2 What could restore Your memory to me except to see my brother's sinlessness? His holiness reminds me that he was created one with me and like myself. In him I find my Self, and in Your Son I find the memory of You as well. ---------------- The conflict felt, every conflict, is an uneasiness with acceptance of Love. Therefore, any conflict or choice to see ego over Source is to deny the Truth of Your Self. It is to choose separation over and over again. In the process of learning this Course, many a student will say, “but how am I held accountable for a choice that I myself did not make?” In other words, why is God allowing me to dream of separation from Him? The Truth is that God is not initiating. God knows Only the Truth of His Creation. While it is His Creation that temporarily is dreaming by not realizing their Self. The choice is not from a distant past as much as the choice lingers in the present by seeing shame, blame and guilt in the ones perceived to be not of you. The choice for separation occurs in every judgment, conflict, upset, word, irritant, war, and instant when you do not see your companion as your Self. This is the choice, relived again and again in a myriad of ways, through warped justifications and means. So you may ask, how then am I to forgive everyone? Start by forgiving your self. Start by being daring to admit your own failure to See Love here and now. Why focus on the splinter in another’s eye when the beam is in your own? Sound familiar? Ask yourself, why am I unable to see the better intentions in the ones who stand near me? I am not asking for the beginning to be a focus on global affairs; but on the one who seems to bestow you the practice in smaller irritations and upsets. These “sins” will be the easiest to let go. For example, the one who speeds, the one who drives too slow, the one who gives you ‘that look’ or shares with you ‘that opinion,’ etc.
I grew up with a lot of conflict as a child. Lotta conflict around me as an adult with work never liked conflict never felt good why do people have to be so difficult. Why can’t we all just be in Harmony and in peace with each other it starts with us. Yes, we look inward for the light in us to shine. I noticed a lot of people call me. Hi sunshine. Hum!
When my partner died 3 years ago, he left with me our child, Spencer, a Himalayan cat with a true soul consciousness. From my crying back then and his dad's disappearance, he developed stress asthma, and has had to have daily Prednisone and and an Albuterol inhaler ever since. His breath is growing weaker this past month. I fear I may loose him and that will be soul-crushing. Wish I had the ability like @Aaron Abke to blow life into his lungs. He's just as precious as a June bug to me. Please send prayers from the Ashram.
“²The ego always speaks first. ³It is capricious and does not mean its maker well. (ACIM, T-6.IV.1:2-3)” I’m reminded of this quote during experiences presenting as antagonizing a stress response. The thinking mind enjoys being a spin-artist of endless suggestions about why a stimulus is wrong and should be judged. The thinking mind thrives on guessing and surmising all the ways that a situation or other person involved “could have or should have [insert guilt or blame] which definitely means [insert terrible effects].” I find it interesting when I consciously take the minute to pause and listen to what the thinking mind is ‘telling’ me. Listening from a neutral stance allows for the opportunity to observe and then ask questions of the ‘witness.’ Sitting in a neutral space, taking on the role of a message detective can be helpful in that we then have a buffer of open observation to simply see again. I picture myself lovingly looking at the ego, as if it sits in a chair across the table from me, “Okay, so what you are saying is that I should conclude by [this experience] happening that I’m [sad, angry, lonely, attacked…]” “Tell me though” I respond, “if I did what you suggest, what would I gain?” Then I wait. In most cases I don’t receive a logical response. The chaos 'heard' is usually more hyped up suggestions on why me feeling bad or angry about the situation is somehow perceived as purposeful at least and vindicated at best. Silly, silly ego! It tries sooo damn hard! Sometimes instead the ego is seen as a simple raving vocalization of staccato like accusations or judgments, rattling away with thought after thought in definite conclusions, barely taking a breath, only wishing for me to feel negative. This too can be observed for what it is… insanity. I’m so grateful to have ACIM teach me to take a tiny step of willingness to ask “What is this for?” Here, the tiniest bit of chosen space can lead to a vastness of impenetrable Peace of mind.
My purpose is not to fix anyone. That requires judgment and separation. A separation from others and the beauty the moment would reveal to us. My purpose is to appreciate them. Not just a quaint appreciation about a separate individual being imagined from my past memories arising. Rather, a deep soul penetrating appreciation that my openness with what is allows us to expand into an all encompassing timeless connection with existence. An appreciation that expands effortlessly into a timeless embrace with creation just as it is. In this appreciation individuals with problems dissappear and are replaced with the truth of who they are. Now I am coming from true understanding. From this place I am capable of loving everyone all at once. And from this place anything is possible. This is our true identity. I appreciate you now as the gift of grace that you are to the world. Can you see that anything telling you otherwise is a lie?
I'm nostalgic, homesick Seeking for the place, I am Where is the love, I am Behind a façade I forgot again But forgetfulness is not a place, but a when If the moon is dark in time And the sun seems to have left the sky Where have I left the cord in the maze Wrong sequence, I left only riddels All seems easy, until time's painful embrace Where, when, how, am I so lost Pull me up from the ocean In which I can't see I should forgive the hook in my cheek Remind me, over and over of myself Fishes shine laying ashore Reflecting every light, but then pulled back by tide Somedays I wash up at my core
1 I will not wait another day to find the treasures which my Father offers me. Illusions must be vain and dreams are gone, even while they are woven out of thoughts that rest on false perception. Let me not accept such meager gifts again today. God's Voice is offering the peace of God to all who hear and choose to follow Him. This is my choice today. And so I go to find the treasures God has given me. 2 I seek but the eternal. For Your Son can be content with nothing less than this. What then can be his solace but what You are offering to his bewildered mind and frightened heart, to give him certainty and bring him peace? Today I would behold my brother sinless. This Your Will for me, for thus will I behold my sinlessness. -------------------- What would you rather have be: the Peace of God or anything but? Sounds silly to ask, and believe this or not, this is the only question to be answered in every moment. The Peace of God is always and all ways with You. That is in essence the Good News. No matter what the thinking mind wishes, this Ultimate Reality can only be denied for just so long. Where God does not, will not, intervene, due to The Love Held for You, He need not ntervene due to Ultimately the Love You have for You. Even You are capable of Seeing another way and can tolerate this playful imagining for just so long. God knows Your wish and sets You free because He Knows You cannot but return to Thee. As long as linear time and space are the measuring rod, the distance will feel too great to surpass. But again, more Good News, the journey is made in an instant! You do not cross eons of ills and sufferings with solely the longing in your heart to awaken. You Simply Be, committed to the Truth As You Are and poof! Tadah!! Funny yes?! While equally joyful. Therefore have faith my Friend, You are not lost to this tiny thinking mind of insanity and have been left comfortless. In all areas of confusion, merely close your eyes, quiet your heart and reach out to the Peace beyond all understanding. See Thee here like a hand grasping out for you from the darkness. A lifeboat in a tossed and tumultuous sea. See the choice to See and See nothing else. Here Peace becomes your Soul commitment and Pure Awareness. Yes… yes You can. Breathe and let This Be. Love Is.
I pray today forgiveness washes over my split mind and brings back to awareness that I am One Self with all of the seeming separate thoughts around me. No matter what they seem to think or do believing they are separate as I believe when there is conflict of any sort in my mind. Let us all remember this moment that there is no other time and with that happy remembering let all seeming sin from the “past” and fear projected onto “future” be washed away with the happy reminder we are all One Self united in our creator. Love Is❤️🌈🙏🥰😍😘🌅🌸🤙🏻
Sitting here writing this from inside the emergency room of my dad's local hospital. He was found on the floor today with a change of mental status. So far, his body seems okay for a 92 year old while they try and sort out why he has had the change in cognition. Nonetheless, I decided to write on here because I continue to find how a committed mind can continue to experience the benefits of awareness. I enjoy observing these benefits. For example, while 4 hours away this morning and conversing with first responders only by phone, I could have been panicked, frustrated, anger, sorrow, etc. That said, instead, I felt a sense of trust and comfort, clear-headedness and compassion. I do work in the healthcare field, so one could easily attribute the response to this experience. However, I'm willing to say the Course was there with me. A choice to "see Peace instead" is always available. The willingness to stay in the now rather than project into worrying, is a choice that be made endlessly when we want to see a better way. As I continue to sit here, in the bustling hallways of a very crowded emergency room because there aren't enough rooms available, I could feel frustration and exasperated or simple acceptance and patience. Living the Course has taught me - there is always a choice between ego and Source. The rules of decision tell me to be willing to ask again when I at least see that I don't like the results of what I'm perceiving. I'm grateful for the opportunity to forgive and make the Choice for God.
The world asked asks, but one question. It is this; of these illusions, which of them is true? Which one establishes peace and offer joy? And which can bring escape from all pain of which the world is made? Whatever form the question takes its purpose is the same. It asks, but to establish sin is real and answers in the form of preference. Which sin do you prefer? That is the one you should choose. The others are not true. What can the body get that you would want the most of all? Thus is all questioning within the world, a form of propaganda for itself! May we all think upon this today and choose again.😘🥰❤️🌈🌸🌅🙏
Aarons & marks Workbook has been SO helpful in helping me get clear on the desires/needs I have. The idols I’ve made in my egos attempts to fulfill those desires/needs. And the feeling I think that these desires will bring me. I desire _______, so that I can have the feeling of______, and I have made this idol of _________, as an ego attempt to fulfill my desire I think Health & Safety are my greatest desires right now so that I can have the feeling of energy, strength, freedom & rest . The Idols have made over the last 35 yrs are too long to list! 😬😅 but I’m glad I can see them more clearly now ! Aaron & Mark are geniuses! If you haven’t checked out that Masterclass yet I HIGHLY recommend it !☺️🥰
Hi brothers and sisters! There is a practice from sadhguru that I really feel like sharing. He says that food is our compulsion, but eating can become a conscious process. Whenever meal is brought in front of you, wait for 2 minutes before beginning to eat, then eat slowly fully feeling and experiencing every moment and each bite. However, this serves highest benefit when you are starving, the hungrier, ther better. I've done this for a while and really it has transformed my perception and enhanced my self-control to a great degree. ✨
After a great discussion on the physics and metaphysics of "Love" this morning on our Watch Party, I asked our fearless leader @Aaron Abke to tackle the impossible question of "What is love?" and this was his response: "Love is ultimately impossible to define, because it manifests uniquely at every dimensional level of creation. Scientifically, love is what physicists call quantum entanglement. Entanglement is evidence of the fact that all is one. On the metaphysical level, love is the fact that everything is connected and exists in relationship. Love is natural law, on that level. But on the individual level love is the inner recognition of shared being, unity or oneness with another. It is not conceptual but felt intuitively/directly. Love is the fact that the Universe is One Being, and this fact can be felt at all levels of creation. It is a very fun and interesting question to ponder, ultimately impossible to answer though 😄"
I know a lot of people believe that Healing the body is either unimportant , impossible or not likely …. But this chapter gives me the impression healing the body is important and shows how to heal ourselves. I’m gonna share some ACIM quotes & some context first before I ask my question & share my struggle…. ACIM says: “ Damaged (sick) bodies are accusers” “ Accusation is a block against love (god)” “ damaged bodies stand firmly against trust in peace, Proclaiming that the frail can have no trust, and that the damaged can hold no grounds for peace” “ who has been injured by his brother, and could love and trust him still” “ how can I trust God if I am damaged and sick” I resonate very deeply with this and can totally see how the subconscious mind created this protector (or defense) in order to protect myself from further abuse. “Accusing” him as dangerous, unsafe, bad/wrong for the abuse & separating myself from him in order to find safety & get my joy /peace back I also can totally resonate with an inability to trust & love a “brother” whom I feel injured by So my question is…..how does one “trust” a brother whose been incredibly violent to you ? And I’m not just talking about someone who’s yelling & in rage…. I’m talking about someone who should probably be n jail…..Threatening to kill, hitting, kicking, choking, spitting on, terrorizing, stalking etc… And actually the WORST of the abuse was his use of God or ACIM concepts in order to try manipulate,control and dominate me. (The Physical abuse is way easier to overcome than the psychological/spiritual abuse) Constantly screaming & raging at me saying “we’re souls NOT human egos” (implying if I really loved him I wouldn’t be having any feelings about the abuse and I’d just be able to love him undconditionaly which in his mind is accepting & enduring the abuse) Saying “it’s in the past!” (Implying if I was more forgiving I’d get over it) when I say I don’t want to be treated in this way etc etc
As a newcomer to LTC Ashram, let me say how refreshing it is to read heart-felt, sincere responses to questions, that if asked in another forum might make the questioner vulnerable and open to attack and/or ridicule. The LTC Community seems like a safe place to explore spirituality with like-minded, respectful souls on the same path. I am grateful to have joined and would like to thank the courageous people who pose their questions and statements, and to all those who provide helpful and encouraging comments. Each one of us is both teacher and student in this loving community. 😍