Got through my first full week of doing the superhero blueprint and although I’ve slipped up once I’m pretty happy with my progress. Had a good giggle with Luke (my son) in the gym last night. He is always finished his routine before me so joins me for the last few exercises so we are lying on the floor doing crunches and I shout out in my Geordie voice “eee Luke I can feel something pulling in my stomach, do you think it’s a muscle” he replied “yes Mam, you do have some there” to which I replied “well I’ve not felt them for 27 years” 🤣🤣 Having struggled with EUPD from the age of 14 and being misdiagnosed for years I started putting weight on at the age of 20 and never lost it, then followed two babies so I’ve never really had a stomach I’d like to look at but now I can actually feel some muscle working there I’m hopeful that one day soon I will be able to look in the mirror and love that part of me.

So I’ve been in this journey for about six weeks now. Yesterday, for the first time in years, I was able to put my socks on without pulling up my right leg to assist it due to lack of mobility/flexibility. For many people, they won’t get how big an achievement this is…but I know you guys will understand! #ProudOfMe

Today I recieved my brand new mirror, never bought a full length mirror before but signed up to the superhero blueprint now with @Jamie Bigg I'm starting with the wo'man' in the mirror! I'm asking her to change her ways.... 'I'm gonna make a change For once in my life It's gonna feel real good Gonna make a difference, gonna make it right.... #cheese 🧀

Have something to look forward to. It doesn't have to be big, a favourite meal, a catch up with a friend, a walk in a place you love. Remind your nervous system that there's more to life than survival & responsibilities. Speaking of...this was not as warm as I'd hoped...so I look forward to getting the board back out later in the year 🥶 Just over 3 mile round trip on the Thames managed though.

You know what, Jamie said to post positives and even negative stuff. So here goes.... I feel like jelly on a plate that's getting shaken. My head this last couple of days is pretty scrambled. My cycle is due (hormones are a b**ch), and I know I feel so much level headed after. But I'll be honest, this last few days has been a struggle. I'm feeling sad from the funeral on Tuesday despite rekindling a friendship. The "phrase, sticks and stones may break my bones"; well I've usually got a thick skin, but coupled with the funeral and hormones, some words this week that have been thrown really and are really cutting deep. And I'm struggling to shift the low mood. I'm still doing my macros, my steps, my exercise. I'm distracting myself with other things and really getting stuck into the time with the kids and that makes me so happy. I even bought myself flowers. But alone time at the minute just feels that much harder. Rather than feeling good and strong in the gym, I'm feeling inadequate, I have imposter syndrome and starting to doubt myself and my confidence is rocked so I feel I've gone into my shell. And why? All because of a bit of emotion, hormones and some words... I feel silly posting this, as I'm usually able to pivot but today feels like a struggle.