Advice help · Spiritual Rebels

Advice help

Hello, I don't have a therapist so I'm just dumping what's going on in my life/mind here hope no one minds

I'm feeling super constricted because I'm in school again. For some background to those who will actually read this I'm 18 and dropped out of school last year cause it felt insanely draining and I felt like I wasn't supposed to be there. every day was hard af. Now don't be coming at me saying I'm an education hater I'm not. entirely. a little maybe. But just because of the way the system is built. Has always felt unnatural to me and I would always rebel against teachers and kinda everyone.

So I dropped out, my parents were horrified and I worked abroad in summer. Then I decided I wanted to come back and try getting my degree again. Don't know why it felt right at the moment and after having done something super uncomfortable I craved something familiar again and I missed my family and like every kid wanted to make em proud. So long story short I got back in school only to find myself in the same situation again. Now I've learned many lessons so I don't regret anything but now I find myself wanting to leave again. Biggest struggle that is just in my head, I know and is most certainly not that deep, is obviously disappointing my parents again and kinda being negative in my bank account. And doubt obviously that little weasel

Well looking from the perspective of abundance there is always a way and enough just my rational mind kicking in haha nice. I just wanna live and experience shit and see this insanely beautiful world and do what I love and I don't need a degree for that. But just not knowing how to leave and telling my parents AGAIN is creating a tornado in my mind. Someone have thought? And if you made it til here damn , I actually just wanted to write it all out not even sure this is beneficial cause I know that intuitively I'll always know what to do and what is meant for me will happen anyway so getting confused with people's advice and opinions that are based on everyone's own beliefs and experiences is maybe not the bestest thing but if you got something you think would help or support, I'm very happy to hear it, bring it on thank you

Love to everyone peace ✌️

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