This month I went offline as much as possible to reconnect with myself. I found myself hearing harsh self criticism, blaming, fear, verbal abuse. Last night a big part arose and gave me a realization I’m disconnected from meaning and purpose but most importantly I’m not good with emotional support or even receiving it in a healthy way. The city isn’t a pretty place and many are too busy or are just not people I should be going to. I’ve been having a hard time just expressing what I feel but today it’s clear I feel hopeless, a failure, scared and a sense of giving up. But then I ask what then was the struggle for? What then was the tears you shed almost every day? To be honest as I grew up I wanted to change the world and show people they had potential within themselves if they stopped and looked but I didn’t realize I also needed to do the same. Boundaries and speaking up for yourself plus sensitivity and vulnerability are my biggest struggles. Oh and of course regulating my emotions. Sounds like narcissism and you’re possibly right. But at least I’m being honest and trying to let go of the mask. I don’t know why I wrote this but one thing I do know I’m working on it. Oh I do ask too no validation on this I’m trying to let go of needing external validation.

Is there a way to practice boundaries. I’ve notice through dreams I have a want to practice it. But when I get a chance I shut down or can’t come up with anything to say. This shows me I’m still have disconnection to my core values. Also showing me signs of codependency.

So a dream showed me a need to express myself in conflict without getting upset or shutting down. Also I’m dealing with not seeing much joy in my life so I end up thinking of way to end my own.

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This technique has helped me so much! It combines breath, vibration, and awareness to calm the nervous system, balance energy, and expand inner awareness: 🌬 Preparation 1. Find a quiet space where you won’t be disturbed. 2. Sit comfortably with your spine straight, shoulders relaxed, and feet grounded or cross-legged. 3. Close your eyes and take a few deep, slow breaths in through the nose and out through the mouth to settle. 🎶 The Humming Practice 1. Inhale gently through your nose, filling your belly first and then your chest. 2. On the exhale, hum—keep your lips closed and let the sound vibrate naturally. Don’t force it; keep it soft, steady, and comfortable. Feel the vibration in your lips, face, throat, and chest. 3. Continue for 5–10 rounds, or longer if it feels good. 🌀 Conscious Awareness - Focus on sensation: Where do you feel the vibration most strongly—head, chest, heart, or belly? - Tune into energy: Notice if the vibration brings warmth, tingling, or calmness. - Visualize: Imagine the hum spreading light or color through your body. 🔔 Variations - Heart humming: Place your hand over your heart and direct the hum there. - Chakra tuning: Hum and focus on one chakra at a time, moving from root to crown. - Silent hum after sound: After each hum, pause in silence and feel the lingering vibration. 🌟 Closing - After your last hum, sit in silence for a minute. - Notice your breath, the stillness, and any shifts in your body or emotions. - When ready, open your eyes slowly. NAMASTE 🙏✨💗