From the very first time I saw Jake on Instagram, I could not help but resonate deeply with his message. His work continued to feature almost daily and after joining the 2 free calls in July and August, I signed up to AU. The journey and road is uncertain, but my emotions this week took me down and was dibilating. I am dealing with a lot and the breatheork session this morning made a huge difference. I am still trying to wrap my head around how something so simple can bring me from the dark places to feeling a sense of peace. I am scared for what may come up form the depths of me, given the unhealed traumas. But as the saying goes: “There where you fear is, there is your task”. I open my heart with love for myself and trust that I too can heal and return to my true self.

So I went to cabin to reconnect with myself. Also noticed how I get triggered when I’m meditating and I hear sounds outside that make it hard to listen within. Also notice I feel jumpy when I hear barking sounds. I’ve also touched a spider as a way to conquer a fear I might have. I’m here now asking if anyone has a possible idea of sensitivity so I can practice. I understand it’s a gift and want to embrace it but also manage it better.

I completed my last day of the Loaring Consistency Challenge in the snow yesterday. It wasn't easy, but I got it done for the second straight year. I'm looking forward to participating in the HOHO Holiday 5k later this month as well. I took a well deserved rest today to heal up after 30 days of exercise, but I will be back at it soon enough... https://raceroster.com/events/2025/108980/loaring-consistency-challenge-2025/pledge/participant/41040287

I had a moment to just sit and let myself calm down enough to sink into something. The moment I hear either ringing or yelling. Soon I’m spinning around in a room or apartment that looks kind of run down. I’m feeling as tho I’m a baby flying around. I’m either then sitting looking around or looking at myself and I see mom mother on the phone and dad on the tv and I’m just being a baby. Soon my mom is getting into her night gown and dad is going to bed. They’re about to get intimate. Baby me notices and minds his business by playing with a toy. Soon my uncle comes out of the bed saying how they both have to start taking their life serious and points at how they are living but also looks at my mom like an act almost to get my dad mostly to take charge of his life. My mom leaves upset and my dad runs to the bathroom upset but in tears and either starts to take meds or drugs as I see some brown puddle on the floor. Then all I hear and see is bathroom mirror break and baby me lying on the floor with a shard on his head. My parents just looking at him with fear and shock speechless. Has anyone experienced this?

When I first got into dropshipping, I was fueled by excitement and big dreams. I thought I finally found the thing that would give me freedom no boss, no schedule, just me building something that could change my life. So, I went all in. I spent nights designing my website, testing products, running ads, trying to understand analytics that didn’t make sense to me yet. Every notification on my phone made my heart skip hoping it was a sale. But most of the time, it wasn’t. My first store failed. I told myself it was part of the process that all entrepreneurs fail before they succeed. So, I tried again. I built another store, with more experience this time, more passion, more hunger to prove I could do it. But it failed again. The second time hurt differently. I wasn’t just tired; I was mentally drained .There’s a kind of silence that hits after you put your heart into something and it still doesn’t work, a silence that makes you question everything .Maybe I wasn’t good enough. Maybe I wasn’t meant for this. But deep down, I knew I didn’t fail because I wasn’t capable. I failed because I was trying to do everything alone. I was the marketer, the customer service rep, the web designer, the manager, and the problem solver all in one person .And that’s not sustainable. Then something shifted. I decided to get help. I brought in an Executive Assistant (EA) someone who could support me, organize my chaos, and take over the things that were draining my energy and time. At first, it felt strange letting someone into something so personal my business, my dream, my mess. But slowly, I started noticing the difference. For the first time, I wasn’t waking up overwhelmed. I wasn’t juggling 10 things and dropping 5. My mind was clearer, my focus sharper. I could finally think about growth, not just survival. And that’s when things started to turn around. With that support, I rebuilt my systems, re-launched my store, and slowly started seeing progress again. Not overnight but steadily. Then one day, I realized I had done it. I had finally hit my first 5-figure milestone.