On Tuesday we had about approximately 50,000 meditators come together in Thailand to meditate on world peace. This was a beautiful and profound experience. It made everything I have been preaching about for years feel more real than ever. Good people exist, everywhere. The revolutionaries are coming together. World peace is possible. The New Earth is en route. Being sat there with people all ages, including thousands of monks was magical. And we were not there alone. All sorts of beings of light were dancing around us in the energy. Celebrating the work we’re doing. I’ve never been a strong meditator. My mind goes 1000 miles an hour and rarely stop. For most of my life I’ve fallen asleep to YouTube videos because it’s distracting me from the mental chatter. I’m much happier in my mind today, and I still have much further to go. And meditation is my path. Meditation and creation. And they follow each other beautifully. It was an honor to spend time with the Monks and they were so greatful for me and the team bringing our marketing forces to the table. This 1 Million Meditators mission has been swimming around the field for a long time. Finally, enough of us have connected to it, and are now coming together to make it happen. Meditation manipulates the environment. So imagine 1,000,000 of us focusing on the same thing. It would send ripples accross the hole planet. Thank you to all of you who tuned in online and contributed to the energy. And if you’re a meditator or want to become one, you can come meditate with me and the team in Thailand 1st of May to the 12th for our next Vipassana Course. We have 220 seats for men and 220 seats for women. Just comment Vipassana below and I will send you the landing page link when we have it done this weekend. So much love. ❤️

Hi, I'm Nikki, and this is the story of my awakening. 1. BEFORE — The Girl Who Silenced Herself 😔 I used to live inside my own disconnection. My body was a battlefield, my emotions an enemy. I would punch walls just to feel something, or cut my skin hoping someone would see my pain. Beneath the chaos was a secret my body never forgot: the memory of being sexually assaulted at just 11, and again at 14. I blamed myself and turned to alcohol and drugs to numb my pain. I didn’t know it yet, but I was becoming the perfect reflection of a world that rewards silence and punishes sensitivity. My aliveness became my greatest threat. 2. CRISIS — The Mushroom Awakening 🍄 It was supposed to be a holiday in Bali. Six friends, laughter, adventure — but Bali has a way of revealing truth. One night, my drink was spiked with mushrooms by one of my friends without my consent. (I had no idea at the time). What followed was a descent into psychosis — and I became trapped in psychosis for 3 DAYS! I begged for help, but was met with "Nikki, it's all in your head, snap out of it". Friends I had known for eight years turned away, called me crazy, left me in a hospital on a foreign island. Believing I was going to die I turned to God and asked for a second chance. I promised that I'd change my life, and help others if he spared my life. The next morning I woke up alone in a psychiatric ward, covered in blood. 🩸No phone. No passport. No money. And no idea how I'd escape. In that sterile room, stripped of identity, I woke up. 👁️ That was the day my real life began. (ohh and I never saw those friends ever again.) 3. CHASE — The Quest for Redemption I had no idea how to heal from this, so I did what our culture teaches — I tried to fix my pain through achievement. I left Adelaide, moved to Sydney, became a personal trainer at a prestigious gym. My discipline became my drug. Weights replaced alcohol, perfection replaced chaos. The body I had once abandoned became my armour. From bodybuilding trophies🏆 to self-help seminars, I chased meaning in every direction — mindset work, money, performance. I mastered control, but not connection. I built confidence, but not safety.

I wrote this in response to a message from a woman navigating the brutal beauty of a twin flame journey. But really, this message is for anyone who's ever felt pierced open by the sacred, undone by Love, and unsure if they’re healing or just breaking again. Dear sister, We go a long way with stories... Human beings loooooove stories. We get lost in them. We dwell in them, especially ‘Love stories’. They become inceptional realities inside our subconscious and turn our life into a day dreaming retreat. And sometimes, along the way, we lose ourselves in the dream, the visions… We start loving the stories more than we love ourselves. We think we're expanding because we're no longer attached to just one identity, but the illusion is: We’re still identifying. With billions of lifetimes, with archetypes, with karmic myths. And we think we’ve dissolved the ego because we’ve remembered all these versions of us… But wholeness isn’t found in stories, is it? Wholeness is our ability to rise to the vibration of Love. To see the Divine in others and act in respect to that transmission. Not to possess it. But to rise it. To be it. To offer it freely. To raise the Love frequency of the whole damn world, starting with ourselves. Now here’s the trick, my love: Love — Loving — Being Loved… At first, it feels freaking painful. Why? Because it’s an internal fusion. On an energetic level, every tissue in your body is being re-coded to hold this frequency. This is ego death, not poetic, not only spiritual but biological. It alters your homeostasis, your nervous system, the chemistry of your blood… Hell, probably your bloodline. You’ve heard it before: when you heal, you heal seven generations behind you, and seven ahead.And yes, it’s real! This is what you’re feeling… But no one said it would be a weekend retreat! So the brave ones, like you, start doing the work. And it’s painful. It’s hard. It’s lonely. And then somewhere along the line, the mind kicks in and says: "Shouldn’t this be over by now?"

My dad has told me my whole life: “The more you do, the more you can do.” When it comes to being a creator, there’s nothing more true. We dilute ourselves often — over-protecting our energy, minimizing our output, and trying to figure out how we can do less, not more. There can be benefit to this in certain circumstances. But for the most part, we were born to create. And when we’re not actively creating — working on projects, giving gifts, participating in community — we’re not really happy. Even the most introverted of us. Dave, owner of the Istana and our business partner — the one who hosts the meditation Truth Talks with Leo said to me in a meeting one day: “Justice, do you know what the Blue Zones are?” I said yes. He said, “Do you know what makes up a Blue Zone — what the most important aspects are?” I said, “Yeah… clean air, nutrient-dense soil and food, super clean water, good air quality…” And then I drew a blank. He said, “Yes — all of those are great. And all of them are irrelevant compared to the one you missed.” Community. The Japanese have a principle called ikigai. Ikigai literally means: “the reason you get up in the morning” or “that which makes life worth living.” Or purpose. And all science shows that when human beings lose purpose, they stop working, stop moving, stop participating — and they die. They wither away. We have to find things to be doing, to be creating, to be working on. We flourish the most when we’re creating. So ask yourself: What are you not allowing yourself to create right now? What story might you be telling yourself about why you don’t have the energy, the time, or the resources to do it? How much are you diluting yourself into thinking you can’t do the thing — when really, you can? This is my reflection for today :) Go create. Go work on your passions. Go out and dance. Be in community. Find a way to give your gifts to the world. I promise, happiness will follow. Peace and Love, Justice

I hope this post won’t land weirdly, it’s coming from a place of curiosity as I am merging where I’m at in my life and spirituality with dating. I would really love to have some open honest conversations with men in the community, around self pleasure, p*rn, semen retention and your views & beliefs. So if you’re a man and you have anything to say on this please drop me a message or leave a comment. Would really appreciate hearing from men, as I sound out my own feelings & beliefs around this. Jaz x