Consistency is hard... why? That might be a good question to sit with for a while. Sometimes it is hard because change is hard and you are trying to play catch up; slow down and focus on being consistent in ONE thing at a time. Sometimes it is hard because you are going against what feels "natural" ans part of you is fighting that. Give yourself time to feel your way through it when you are not consistent. Are you stressed? That kind of break is helping me a lot right now. Best of luck on becoming who you are trying to be! Progress is good!

On my side, Fear. Of being rejected, judged, and fear that the time and effort needed to repair will be more than I am capable of at the moment (usually at night, I start my day at 0400) and we will end the day on a low note. On her side, I feel anger most of the time, for being disappointed, treated as though she isn't important enough, or that something needed wasn't done. Below that, fear. Fear that I won't get better at managing time or expectations, fear that she will fall out of love with me, fear that my faulures will impact her growth and progress or that it will negatively impact the kids.