Hey everyone! Decided to turn a post I made into a video, lately I kinda changed the way I create content I try to first find an interesting idea, write about the idea to understand more deeply and to fill in all the holes in my logic and to expand on it and once I like it I turn the writing into a video. Any feedback is appreciated, I again felt a lot of resistance with this one but Im happy I put it out there!

I'd been uploading videos for 5 months and I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I just feel like shit, putting in so much effort and then getting a few views. I'm really grateful for any reviews here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSvxzVKwaoMTHWQrshkuWdg I appreciate it.

I was kinda in building mode the last year and today I woke up to this view: (attached below) Yeah it looks beautiful I know, and no, this post won't be about some bullshit of work hard or anything like that. The truth is I was afraid to come to Bali, I was in "monk mode" for so long, and not the 2-8 week sprint type of monk mode, it wasn't even monk mode anymore it was just my life... I consumed so much self-improvement and business content that everything has to be filtered thru the question: is this beneficial? Will this make me better? and when I mean everything I mean EVERYTHING, I was afraid to come to Bali because I knew I had this filter and I wanted to do stuff here that I just love to do and it doesn't necessarily make me "better" I forced myself into this optimizer identity and I lost my creativity, personality and playfulness towards life. ​ But this made me stuck... I stopped having great ideas, that aliveness left me and I even forgot what was the reason I was working for. One day on my YouTube feed some random channel came up about some guy documenting his "monk mode" I was curious about the video and I made a prediction about the guy's personality before clicking: "he will probably lack aliveness, will have that sleepy voice and will talk about his routine" I said to myself and I was 100% spot on, I knew this because practically this is how I lived... but the truth is that after a while it started to have diminishing returns, not even diminishing returns it's just practically got me nowhere. ​(I touched more on this in my new video)​ ​ so I decided to reverse engineer the times when I achieved the most, made the most money, had great connections and was the most fulfilled and I realized that at that time I was just being myself, sharing, consuming and creating stuff that I just enjoyed. I think now I understand what Naval meant by saying "escape competition thru authenticity"

a golden nugget form building a personal monopoly with David Perell and Jack Butcher also here are my figmajam brainstorm notes #Build a personal monopoly

A thing very few people talk about is how easy is to fall off of the "content flywheel" you can get to the point when content creation is effortless and you create value after value, but if you fall off and you stop the momentum it's pretty easy to regress back, I personally haven't published any high-quality video that I was proud of in the last 1 year, because of traveling, helping business owners grow on youtube and honestly the main main reason was just the fact that I was deeply afraid of my video not performing. Because if I half-ass a video and it flops I can blame it on the fact that "yeah I didn't put everything into this video" however if I put in a lot of effort into my video and I do what I believe is the best way to create content and it flops, that can hurt. I was delaying uploading this video because I knew it wasn't perfect, but if I don't make a deadline then I will never publish and as the saying goes: "Art is never finished, only abandoned." resistance can manifest in so many different ways, for some people its half-assing the video so they can blame it on that if it flops, for someone its perfectionism so they never publish, for someone its delaying uploading that first video, or justifying why this one thing that just came up in the business is more important than creating content, for others they say I will first hit XYZ income goal and after it I start creating content, your brain will create the perfectly written sales letter of why not to publish that video, but you have to notice it and do it anyway. "oh the lights could have been better" "I should have worked more on the editing" "why did I choose this idea, its so hard to package" I mean it's not perfect I know, but instead of wanting to make all these improvements I just want to press upload and promise myself that everything I don't like with this one I will implement into the next one. And as always feedback is appreciated and I'm curious how do you guys remain consistent with content?