Social problems as a teenage girl
Hello everyone,I am April.I am 14,from Taiwan.I am personally stuckimg from how to social with others,technically,how to social with my classmates.I was suffering from serious depression,so I was dumping too much negative energy and thoughts to my friends at my class.And I one of my friends told me that a lot of people thought I was annoying due to some of my bad social habits.I really cared about this,so I isolated myself to give myself space and time to find and notice those bad habits and improve it,and give my classmates mates boundaries cause I didn’t have them in the past. And I found myself getting really social awkward with my classmates now. I start resting during the break time instead of chat with others,and I don’t know how to join them too.They seems to exclude me in conversations,because some them don’t like me due to some reasons,or we don’t have same topics or they have bad impressions about me,or maybe I am a boring ,serious person to them. I am trying to fix it,but I really don’t know what to do. I think I started to focus on myself more now.I don’t wait for anyone just to chat with the group ,I do things my own a lot instead of asking people to stay with me or be with me.I started to learn being alone and doing things myself . Like I said,I just resting or sleeping on my seat because 9th grade’s students have a lot of classes like to 10pm. And I don’t force myself to do or talk things I don’t want to. But I don’t know if this is right or wrong. I can still get along with others friends or people at cram school very well,except my classmates at school(junior high). It is only half of the year left,and I don’t know should try to get along with them,join the group,start changing my pace to be with them.Or I should focus on myself and improving myself,but okay to be alone sometimes. I am sorry to type so much,but I really wish to find some solution or guide. I am really not the funny girl in the past with my classmates now,more serious and maybe boring to them.I really don’t know what to do.