Fear clarifies what matters
Something I relate to very much when I was younger was this fear of being seen and heard. The thing i loved most back then was singing in front of others but it gave me terrible stage fright 😱 getting physically ill before every performance. I always did it anyway. The body reactions got less severe over time... but it is still there. It's part of our wiring. In a one shot moment. When it was now or never. Fear of judgement turned into sovereignty... not because I didn't have fear, grief, intensity... but because I allowed them to stay. I believed in what I was doing. @E. V. Wright your work connected me to this puzzle piece... I saw feelings differently in a moment when performance turned into a authenticity being witnessed. When i forgot to think about myself at all because the moment had gravity and i allowed it to ground me into what mattered the most in that moment. (The last sounds my mother would hear were me singing my absolute best... the thing she always wished for me... nothing could stop me, not social rules or expectations... this moment deserved all of me) I could move through fear of lots of things somewhat easily... but the thing i loved most... I still had the deepest fear everytime. Because fear is actually just a focus lense. It shows you what's important to you. It's asking to be acknowledged, its a signal to slow down the moment and be present with yourself and your audience ...remember a time when you moved through this fear with a successful outcome. You'll keep building more of those moments. Fear isn't trying to stop you. Its asking, for presence and reverence for something important. What alchemizes fear into success truly is doing it anyway... with the added nuance in my case... this moment, this time, this day is all that matters. Let everything else become background noise. @Sebastian Schroeder , You reminded me of this today. Your voice, words, honesty and integrity engender trust. I've never met you in person but this is an obvious recognition to me from a distance. Just from what you post here. The way you support others... its a gift.