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He wrote & it's too raw and interesting not to share: Hey— 32-hours of travel and 14 re-watches of Moana later, and we finally made it back to Sydney— another harrowing trip across the world to visit my family in the books. Keeping two kids and two adults contained in three tiny airplane seats took a heroic effort. Let's just say I got side-eyed by a lot of passengers for my decision to let our toddler crawl barefoot back-and-forth to the bathroom. As amazing as it was to spend time with family, it feels good to be back home. But I’ve been having a problem ever since. It's a problem I've faced off and on as a creator ever since I started, especially after taking a break. 𝗜𝘁 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹𝘀 𝗶𝗺𝗽𝗼𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗮𝗴𝗮𝗶𝗻. On a scale of self-doubt to self-confidence, I'm somewhere beyond self-doubt and deep into self-destruction. My recent texts to Nat pretty much sum it up: "𝗕𝗹𝗮𝗵, 𝗜'𝗺 𝗶𝗻 𝘀𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝗮 𝗿𝘂𝘁. 𝗜 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝗜'𝗺 𝘀𝘁𝘂𝗰𝗸 𝗶𝗻 𝗾𝘂𝗶𝗰𝗸𝘀𝗮𝗻𝗱. 𝗟𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝗼𝘃𝗲, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗜 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁." I went on to dump all my feelings on her. It feels like I've put out nothing in months. No social content, no podcasts, very few YouTube videos. And I'm uninspired by the current video I'm working on, which is now three days past deadline. The worst part: it doesn't even feel like it matches the direction I want to take the channel, so finishing the last few hours of editing feels like torture. But that’s just the starter. The main course is about to be served: the spiral. It starts with frustration. Then a few others join the party: anxiety, envy, self-pity... And regret. I've been thinking about the past decade since starting my YouTube channel and all the things I wish I'd done differently. There were so many opportunities I missed and decisions I should (or shouldn’t) have made. I should have focused more on making better videos. I shouldn't have hired so many people. Back then I was one of YouTube’s “Creators on the Rise” (I’ve got a screenshot on an old hard drive to prove it). Now it feels like I’m just a washed-up creator, repeating the same old lines into a different camera.