Good morning, gents. Did you know that anger can be an addiction? As a man who spent the better part of 2 decades angry. I can guarantee that anger is a full blown addiction. Starting from childhood my default setting has been anger and hate. I was dead inside and anger was the only thing that made me feel alive. The rush of endorphins, the blood pumping through my veins, the rage, the hate was my identity. The small moments of joy or happiness I felt were like a few grains of sand on a beach made of anger. I was miserable and everyone could see it but me. People that knew me would intentionally say or do something to piss me off to have a good laugh at my expense. Even doing the things i like to do my mind was flashing thoughts of rage. Years of this kind of mental stress led me to a whole lot of physical problems. All you guys in combat sports know that it's not always the one strike KO that gets you, sometimes it's the accumulative damage you take round after round. After years of this type of behavior I developed some severe gut health issues, cortisol levels through the roof, migraines, and the list goes on. I knew I had to change, but after living that way for so long I didn't know how to not to be angry. So, several years ago I made a conscious decision to stop and reset every time I get angry. After making this lifestyle change and by the grace of God my physical ailments started disappearing and I was learning what happiness feels like.
I tell you all this to let you know that anger is a tool, but it is a tool to be used sparingly. If you're going down the path that I was on STOP. It is not worth it. You will ruin your days and the days of those around you. The Bible tells us to not let the sun go down on our anger and I was a living example of the reasons why. I see a lot of men who default to anger and are suffering because of it. Brother's, let me tell you there is another way and you can course correct. Get off that path, take time to breathe, and reset.
Apologies for the long post, but my goal it to provide something of value to this group and this subject strikes a chord with me. Hope y'all have a good day.