My Story: Teacher & Mother - Trauma and Burnout- Dating and my own path
I have no idea if I am doing this correctly since it is the first time I am writing here. Hi everyone, my name is Jennifer and I am a solo womantraveler from Germany. I used to be a full time teacher and mother to 3 wonderful children, married. 5 Years ago I experienced a major burnout which has kept me in a psychosomatic hospital for 6 months. I found out that I was traumatized in my early youth, hence, I have been suffering from severe nightmares for All my life until I relived the situation in a secure setting with therapists. From one day to the other, the nightmares stopped. This to me is still like magic. It was not all easy from that point onwards but still such a profound shift that I never doubted the worth in continued work of awareness and self love. My kids are grown up now, I seperated from my husband, became a traveller in a microcamper and after really indentifying with that new ' me' I opened up a couple of months ago to the dating World and... my gosh, it completely shook my nervous system. I seem to draw in the avoidant types who cannot help but act hot and cold and that was so hard for me to be with. To be with that pain repeatedly, feel it all and still stay soft. It really has taken its toll on me so during the past week of being sick with a Sinusitis, I decided to follow my own dream again and rented a place in the old town of beautiful Seville in Spain for 4 whole months. I do not speak the language ( yet) and don't know anyone but never before has a decision I made felt so right in my gut. I have already enrolled for pottery, Flamenco and a language class and simply cannot wait. I want to regain my full strength again before opening up to that craziness off the dating world, again. So much from me. If you have any questions, please feel free to ask me. I would love to connect with you on here. Love from Germany Jennifer Sternenlied