… and I Feel ashamed
My beautiful girlfriend and I stopped smoking - and I’m so grateful to finally be free.
Yesterday we were celebrating CSD and having a great time. She wanted to smoke so bad and got a cigarette from somebody.
I got so angry in my belly and heart area that I closed the door and didn’t want to talk to her anymore. I was pissed.
And thus the rest of the day was cold and there was a distance between us.
I want to be the man were she feels safe and even when she makes mistakes just accepting her - but I failed.
So… still feeling ashamed. Asked for forgiveness and we‘ll recover.
I cried a lot yesterday when I thought about how I treated her.
Now I’m trying not to dramatize it but move forward