You know when you go to the gym, do the first set and just KNOW it’s gonna be a bad session? Yeah that was me today… But here you can see I’m smiling, why? Because I’ve stopped attaching my self worth to results and the destination and started focusing on the most important thing, showing up and getting it done. I used to have a bad session and it would ruin my day. My momentum would be gone, I would feel deflated and completely down. but the truth is, bad days are coming. It’s just part of the journey. You aren’t always going to wake up and feel motivated, you aren’t always going to have PB’s and lift heavier than you’ve ever done before, and that’s okay. As long as you keep turning up through those bad sessions, you are going to get better. So please stop trying to be perfect in everything you do and focus on just doing your best each day. You will make mistakes but you will also learn loads of new things and become even better because of it. You got this! Have a good sunday

The reality of my life…😂 It might look like all fun and games on YouTube but this is a reminder to stop comparing your life to highlight reels you see on social media all the time. I absolutely love what I do which is why I can do it for so long but it’s not always so glamorous😂

Yesterday I uploaded my first proper YouTube video of myself, and I’d really like your thoughts on it. I know it’s not great, I'm happy with it for a first video. I’m trying to build a style that feels real and relatable, almost like a podcast, and it might turn into that in the future. That’s why the editing is minimal, I want it to feel honest rather than overly polished. I’m not sure yet if that format works well on YouTube, and because I posted it on an old channel, it’s probably getting pushed to the wrong audience, so the views are pretty flat right now. Hopefully that changes as I upload more and figure out the direction. If anyone’s got suggestions or feedback on how I could improve it, I’d genuinely appreciate it. https://youtu.be/8gg_Qnkd0-A?si=MMdA46u280pqRuR4 P.S. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

I mean, this is the case since my childhood, not only now, but this always screwed me up over the span of my life. Maybe some of you know what I'm talking about, and recognise themself in that, unfortunately. And sorry if my post isn't clear, to be honest it isn't clear to me either, still foggy to me, just like it is, but this is why I'm writing it. (I swear I CAN'T write a short message, sorry guys. But I've seen a lot of people open up in some posts lately, and that's a great thing really, I love this community. Anyway let's start.) The problem is that my mind is always kind of "foggy," and most of the time, I can't make out anything of my thoughts, even when I'm actually trying to focus on them. I always want to think about one trivial thing, that shouldn't need this amount of thinking, but this is apparently already too hard. When I try to, like imagining myself in a scenario, what would happen and everything, I am just kind of stuck in a loop, never really advancing in that thought. Like I said in my introduction post, I can't really ever focus on one task -- because my mind is always wandering off to something more "enjoyable" I guess. Whenever I'm some minutes into something, I will lose all my momentum because my brain is always up to something else. And this was really screwing me over for school, when people didn't understand why I was almost never doing my homework, because of that. People called me lazy, and honestly I maybe was, at least a bit. But I always had this weight, that I fell made it way harder for me to actually get the thing done than anyone else. Even today, I feel like I have all the will in the world to do things but I'm always thinking about something else and that just stop it. And even out of self-growth or work or just tasks in general, I can't think about stupid things like what am I gonna eat, what am I gonna do today? Each time I genuinely give it a shot, it just kind of breaks me, I end sometimes crying because I can't make a fricking decision. And as long as I haven't finished the scenario I was playing in my head or whatever, I WON'T get out of my head, which means unless I do it, I will not be able to do something else, like something as trivial as watching a YouTube video, just because my mind is always on this thing and 10 others. It's screwing me over out of work in my personal life even, always catching up to me and that's really the main reason while I always feel like a weight, being depressed at least a bit at all time.

I’ve always found that how I show up in the mornings, usually sets the tone for the entire day. For me, I’ve been struggling recently with a little burn out and procrastination from working at home all the time on my own. So, something that’s helped me so much is using the first 20-30 minutes of my morning to get myself outside, get my mind working on ideas and taking it a little slower before an intense day. This little change has helped get me out the house and feel so much more inspired. So although, going on a walk and being in nature might not sound “productive” - it can actually be the most important thing you do today as it can inspire ideas and thoughts that can boost your entire mood! Remember, it’s a marathon not a sprint - learn to rest, not to quit!