So many signs, trying to see them all.

Hello everyone, how are you today?

Where I live, this is the darkest and shortest day of the year, which means, from this day forward the days will again become longer and brighter. On this latitude, where we get almost no direct sunlight at this time of year, I want to contribute with a post, shining light from within in the absence.

For me, this day symbolizes the pinnacle of contraction, and, this is as "bad" as it gets. Being here, at the worst, realizing that nothing is actually wrong gives me a new baseline and I intentionally use this as a point of departure, another way to remember and accepting who I am, at my worst. I want to be aware of who I am when I'm not at my best, I want to give love to this version of me, and it is at this stage, by the amount, that I can gauge and choose who I am. I choose Love, in the absence of light.

Compassion, the feeling of relating to oneother's struggles with emotional reaction is a powerful experience. And at this point in my life, I am drowning in this feeling, really getting used to it. I enjoy how the feeling overwhelms me to the point of pure awe. I feel myself getting stronger by welcoming with no resistance how this feeling wash over my being. Tears in abundance, leaving a glimmering trace as these diamonds runs down over my cheeks telling a story of a soul that once more remember how to feel strong in my being. I don't care if somebody notice me, they will recognize what they witness, rare and beautiful, with no judgement.

Here I sit with my thoughts of how all things are not as they should be, not trying to fix it. Joy joins the party, telling me that things can be done, by being vulnerable and open. A redemptive expression comes to life of its own. Something more than a faint hope, a knowing, that everything will come to be as long as I continue to allow myself to let go and be who I am, more and even more, every day.

Peace, is that you? I think so, it feels like that. I've missed you, even for a second, and you are more than welcome back. I remember how you found me at my worst, you have always been there for me, even when I don't recognize you. Even when I've not been at my best you have always patiently waited for me to once more remember. How could I ever, ever, ever reciprocate what you do for me? You inspire me to my core, I can feel it. This time, I won't forget, the feeling is too strong to not make a permanent imprint. This time I will prioritize you more than ever before, my best friend and companion. My love, my being my everything. I forgive that I forget sometimes, and I know that you understand.

I've just come across a new resource that resonates with me. Maybe you too?

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