So i live in hostel far away from my home and i am very active and energetic in wtv i do let it be my normal routine or my spiritual practices ,but the moment i come back to my home i am completely drained i hve no energy to do anything,i cannot focus on my meditation like some fear holding me back which i never experience in my hostel, i feel so drained the entire day ,how can i stop this?wat causes this?is it some childhood trauma?