That diversion you return to every so often feeds something, so feed that hunger.
That last needy son or client check-in; that last call or text to honor your word ~ they testify to Why Me? Why YOU are chosen and put in this position.
The giving-giving needs a balance for you to feel secretly satisfied.
Secretly is the thing. Only you, or as Rastas say, I&I, know what you do.
Here's what a group of 45 transformation teachers deliberated on and delivered in 2025 (I was in the audience):
"As I become intimate with the presence of I AM, I surrender and allow myself to break open and receive what is being envisioned through me, now."
Repeat and repeat; ponder each word.
This continually transmutes my diversion and addictive behaviors, before or after I've indulged.
You are welcome to print it out and put it on the wall, as I have.