How I would really like to know God I know Him But not know know Him And I wanna know know Him Sometimes in my prayers I negotiate, I’ve always been a little skeptical, I’ve always wrestled with my faith. I still see God through my nearsightedness and astigmatism. I still don’t understand why Evelio exists, why people suffer, and although smart people tend to believe they know better than God, and the rational thing may sound like stepping away, I want Him. And I wish I had somethign to give Him in return. Poetry, music, being a great talent at something and give it to Him. But I have nothing. Nothing to offer Him. “He just wants your heart” and He has it, but it’s broken and dirty. I cannot even promise Him my obedience because even that I ask Him for, to give me obedience. I could give Him my time but I’m terrible managing it. All I can offer is my tears. That maybe if Ge wants someone to cry with, He could cry with me. But I want to Know Him to. To really know Him, to understand Him better. I hope I get that once day, even though I have nothing in return for Him

I have been feeling lots of dissociation and derealization for the last couple of weeks. I know Abba is sustaining me but it’s kind of discouraging me this morning. This morning I am having attacks come at me that something is wrong with my body. Which is something I can tend to worry about…what’s going on with my physical body… I know I am healthy and my healthy body is responding to unhealthy things in my circumstances. It gets harder and harder to endure through all this when there’s nothing I can do to “change” how I feel because I really need to be in a new location. Only God can make that happen for me due to how impossible that is in this economy and at this time. I feel stuck but I know I am being held. I feel a heaviness on my heart today that feels so crushing. Oh and not to mention how HUMID it is in Ontario right now…that crap alone puts me in a bad mood. Last night it was 90% humidity. I’m like 🤮 I need the SNOW ❄️ Anyway…thank you in advance for praying for me ♥️

Hey yall, my ex friend is going through some really heavy stuff, he wants to commit suicide and his parents cant afford to give him the proper mental health help he needs. Apperntly some bad stuff happend to him....so please pray for all of them

Hey yall, was wondering if yall could keep me, my family and ex in yalls prayers thanks