I have been feeling lots of dissociation and derealization for the last couple of weeks. I know Abba is sustaining me but it’s kind of discouraging me this morning. This morning I am having attacks come at me that something is wrong with my body. Which is something I can tend to worry about…what’s going on with my physical body… I know I am healthy and my healthy body is responding to unhealthy things in my circumstances. It gets harder and harder to endure through all this when there’s nothing I can do to “change” how I feel because I really need to be in a new location. Only God can make that happen for me due to how impossible that is in this economy and at this time. I feel stuck but I know I am being held. I feel a heaviness on my heart today that feels so crushing. Oh and not to mention how HUMID it is in Ontario right now…that crap alone puts me in a bad mood. Last night it was 90% humidity. I’m like 🤮 I need the SNOW ❄️ Anyway…thank you in advance for praying for me ♥️

Hey yall, was wondering if yall could keep me, my family and ex in yalls prayers thanks

How I would really like to know God I know Him But not know know Him And I wanna know know Him Sometimes in my prayers I negotiate, I’ve always been a little skeptical, I’ve always wrestled with my faith. I still see God through my nearsightedness and astigmatism. I still don’t understand why Evelio exists, why people suffer, and although smart people tend to believe they know better than God, and the rational thing may sound like stepping away, I want Him. And I wish I had somethign to give Him in return. Poetry, music, being a great talent at something and give it to Him. But I have nothing. Nothing to offer Him. “He just wants your heart” and He has it, but it’s broken and dirty. I cannot even promise Him my obedience because even that I ask Him for, to give me obedience. I could give Him my time but I’m terrible managing it. All I can offer is my tears. That maybe if Ge wants someone to cry with, He could cry with me. But I want to Know Him to. To really know Him, to understand Him better. I hope I get that once day, even though I have nothing in return for Him

“Not a word failed of any good thing which the Lord had spoken to the house of Israel. All came to pass.” ‭‭Joshua‬ ‭21‬:‭45‬ ‭NKJV‬‬ Whatever the Lord has promised, it will come to pass. Take heart!! 🙏✝️❤️