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the real me

Well I've decided I think this is the time that I should say this to you all first I want to say I really appreciate each and every one of you and for having this group opened up I've mentioned this group to my therapist and told her how great I feel being a part of this group. So I've decided to share with you all who I really am. I served 6 years in the United States Marine Corps and fought in the first prison Gulf War 1991 both Operation Desert Shield and storm. Upon returning my health has been deeply impacted from that war and I don't know how I'm still standing right now. On the psychological side I have been doing therapy for at least 23 years I depend on my therapy I need my therapy as you can possibly imagine how a war can deeply impact a human being. Upon relocating to this new area but 9 months ago I have been literally been going through hell. Won't get into the specifics but it has been one tribulation and trial one after the keep in mind out of everything that life has thrown at me I have conquered in one fashion or another I have been a survivor. And though there were times that if I didn't have my great therapist I have now I probably wouldn't be sitting here speaking to you and that is the 100% truth. I just felt I needed to share this with you all because you've seen possibly one maybe more than one side of me by what I've been posting and what I have said and I apologize if I may have come harsh to anyone or said something out of fashion due to the immense pain that I am experiencing now in my life with no backup from my medical team. I know you can only imagine what I am going through or what a combat veteran goes through and I know you will never really fully understand how I feel and how other combat veterans are feeling. Leslie with my PTSD I have decided that I may not pursue a career in music production due to the fact that with Social Security I am labeled unemployable due to my PTSD and I had to take a serious look at my future and possibly I could be sitting myself up for failure. Yes it was something that I deeply and really wanted to accomplish and do but I really had to take a real look at it and I could be possibly setting myself up for failure if I went this path with you not knowing the specifics if you did you probably agree with me. Bottom Line music is saving my life right now and after the bad incident with the guitar though I am receiving and will be still receiving some pretty awesome gear I feel that that is in the past now so I can continue the enjoyment and love and passion for music and I am thankful that I am able to share what I see in here and will continue to do that and I thank you all deeply I love you all us musicians share that Bond that shouldn't be broken so I thank you for your time I hope I didn't bore you and be waiting for my videos of my new amp today and let's rock on thank you all have a good one.

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