My Journey · New Earth Community

My Journey

Hello everyone. This is long overdue, but better late than never!

My name is Jordan, I'm 31 years old, and I live in New Jersey.

I'm committed to helping others expand their consciousness and live happier, healthier, and more fulfilling lives. Many tools along this path have and continue to transform my life for the better. Without them, I wouldn't be here writing this right now.

The least I can do is share my journey and help others along their own. Spreading the information of what has helped me and how I've grown and healed.

Some of the most powerful tools for me have been diet, exercise, spirituality, meditation, psychedelics, creativity, and many more. There are many ways to improve our lives that are neglected by society and the education system. I aim to correct this deficit.

From my perspective, my story has five major phases so far. I'm still fully solidifying and shaping it day by day, so this is great practice. I've already gotten so much out of this life reflection.

Phase One, Primary Programming:

On the surface, I had a great childhood. Where I had hidden neglect and pain was in the emotional and mental department. My parents did a good job of providing for my physical needs, but not so much my emotional ones. My mom did her best but ended up being very critical, and my dad was very passive when it came to direct interaction and raising children. My parents also didn't have healthy drug habits; functional addiction was a strong theme. And it passed on to me. Even before it was drugs, it was television, food, and video games. The numbing and escaping that my parents showcased became the norm for me as well. Before moving on, I want to mention that I don't hold any animosity towards my parents for my upbringing (not anymore, at least). They did the best they could, and it could have been so much worse. I'm very grateful for the hand I was dealt and all the teachings that have come with it.

Phase 2, Self-Shaping Shifts:

These patterns and habits continued right alongside the mounting pressure from society. I started experimenting with drugs at 17. Weed soon became my drug of choice to enjoy and numb with. I start experimenting with psychedelics recreationally. They taught me much about using drugs in moderation, and expanded my mind to many greater possibilities in general. This is phase two because drug use, with all its positives and negatives, would become a major theme of my life. Become a part of me. An unhealthy, self-medicating and coping part of me, as well as a part of me committed to a higher purpose, curiosity, learning, healing, self-discovery, and growth. I go to college. It feels like I'm living a life chosen for me. Here I go, off to learn how to do the thing I'll do for the rest of my life. I was told I had to pick something. I like drugs. Why not pharmacy?

In College, I experienced my first love and heartbreak, which also ended my college experience long before graduation. Oh, and I had picked up a nicotine addiction at this point to pair with my weed addiction.

At home, I jump around from odd job to odd job, wandering in a fairly lost state, experiencing more heartbreak and emotional pain, fear, and confusion. And continuing to numb these things with weed, nicotine, and various other pleasurable, consumptive, escaping habits.

I discover live music, and the combination of live music and drugs. This is the second major defining discovery in my life that has shaped a large part of who I am to this day, once again with all its good and bad. (It has become its own addiction as well.) This marks the end of phase 2.

Phase 3, Discovering the Light ...and the Dark:

I acquired my first "real" job and found some specific, timely, and synchronistic content that changed me forever. (I didn't even know what synchronicity was at the time) Enlightened by this content, I began to take control of my life for the first time, realizing my power. I started my weight loss and fitness journey, which led to my self-help and entrepreneurial initiation and journey, my meditation habit, and many other huge, monumental shifts. I was excited and in control of my life for the first time. Empowered, motivated, focused. And then...

Fast forward to a few years later: I'm two years into my first business, which was not profitable, and I hit major burnout... I gave in to the burnout and the temptations of society. I sold my soul to full-time work in IT, which deepened the burnout and exhaustion, and led to more escapism and consumption. A big downward spiral that would continue for years. Now I was worse off than before I even started this self-help journey, at least in terms of fulfilment, motivation, excitement, and joy in life.

Phase 4, the Healing Journey:

I met my now ex, who catalyzed a major shift in me. I began reconnecting to my self-help roots. To what I wanted at a deeper level and was masking with coping mechanisms. Expanded my mind out of narrow skepticism to consider something greater. It was just enough to get me back on a very slow spiral up, and to start what would be a long healing journey.

I started taking classes that helped me facilitate others' psychedelic experiences, and that, in turn, taught me many other tools and triggered my own initiation into shadow work. I realized at a certain point what had happened previously. Although I had discovered the light, I had not cleared out the mud and muck of my shadows from the primary programming of childhood and my pain that I had numbed for years, so there wasn't enough room within me to maintain and strengthen that light and motivation. I needed to go into my own darkness and healing.

Phase 5, Alchemy, Shedding, Blooming:

Now, a couple of years later, after facing just enough of my own shit, I am fully committed again to my path, calling, and purpose.

I have shed many layers of pain and coping, addiction, and other maladaptive behavioral patterns using these tools, mindsets, and methods. I am still deep within my healing journey, and I don't believe that any of us ever fully reach the end of that journey, but I feel that I have hit a milestone.

Like the Lotus pushing through the mud to bloom, a caterpillar or dragonfly emerging after metamorphosis, or a baby bird leaping from the nest, it's finally my time to fly.

To share these gifts and treasures I've discovered that have lightened my own suffering so much and led me to the most meaningful relationships, experiences, and purpose of my life.

And that brings us to the present moment. I vow to show up every day to build this future, this vision that will allow me to serve others authentically and in alignment with my beliefs and values rather than just being a cog in the capitalistic system. To serve in a way that I think the world and humanity truly need.

I'm honored for the opportunity to follow this path. To commit wholeheartedly to my dharma and this journey of Alchemical Evolution. And of course, to do it alongside such an amazing community of like-minded seekers.

Let's. Fucking. Go.🎇

PS If you have any questions or reflections on anything I've shared, I would love to hear them! I'm always open to hearing others' perspectives. Let's connect, heal, and grow together!

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