Be honest… if your past self met your current self, what’s the first thing they’d be shocked, confused, or even judgy about?

Be honest… if your past self met your current self, what’s the first thing they’d be shocked, confused, or even judgy about? And share what they would be most proud of you for. ❤️‍🔥

You’ve worked hard to get to where you are no matter where you are. It’s been your choice. Take this opportunity to reflect on those choices and share your answer in the comments below. 👇

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My reflection: I have evolved so dramatically over the last five years that this would be a different reflection for each version of me year after year.

Five years ago, he would be shocked to see that I wasn’t racing, three years ago he would be confused but understanding, two years ago he would be so grateful that I wasn’t racing and so proud of me for listening to my heart.

Five years ago, high school justice would be blown away and astounded by the man that I have become I’ve worked very hard to be the kind of friend and human being that I would want in my corner and I could probably say I think he would be joyous to see the qualities that I exhibit, for I have overcome many of my not so virtuous Habits, and behaviors . I used to be very sarcastic, extremely judgmental and incapable of “losing” any argument or confrontation without serious pain to my ego.

I had to prove that I was worthy intelligent and or right about things by giving advice where it was not invited. Thinking I was an expert in things that I had only read a few pages about or heard one time on a podcast.

I was an “expert Regurgitator” as one of my teachers told me 👀 I had not moved into practice with many of the things I was learning, nor did I understand how they could be put into practice, especially in regards to the esoteric.

There was such a deep fascination to understand our true history, the spiritual sciences, to explain some of the seemingly unexplainable things that most people were afraid to, or did not have the courage to speak about.

— now—

I’ve transmitted those fears and distortions, into a humble excitement for the opportunity to be wrong and to learn something from others. Nothing brings me more joy than the opportunity to solve a good problem and find emotional and spiritual solution solutions to bring balance back into our system.

I greatly enjoy the challenge and exercise of disciplining myself emotionally, I’m working on the physical discipline part ;) and I have since deeply repaired my relationship with my mother and parents to whom before I was a sarcastic and somewhat arrogant individual.

—yet—-

All of that said, even if I had the opportunity to go back in a time machine and teach my younger self, everything that I know now I wouldn’t. Because I so deeply cherish the challenges, I went through ..the choices I had to make the people who scarred me and the emotions that built me and broke me.

Of all of the things I learned along this journey though… Especially from being a race car driver. I found that there was truly no joy in standing in victory Lane when it meant triumphing over others to their detriment. When my wins cause so many others, pain, uncertainty, and sad sadness there was no joy left in it for me anymore.

Which is why I chose this life of service to you. I’m still learning how I can best be of service to you, but all that matters to me is that I am.

NOW I wear those scars proudly as metals.. as Palo Cohelo would say..

And you should too… because they make you… you ❤️‍🔥

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