I’m feeling very lost right now, and I’m actually struggling to put it into words, which for me is saying something because HELLO… words are usually my thing. The last two weeks, you might have noticed things have been a little bit different. I haven’t really been running my online businesses the way I normally do, I haven’t been as present, as loud, as “on it”… and yes, they’ve still been running, and for that I am truly grateful, like totes grateful, but my energy has been elsewhere. I’ve been running an in-person retreat here in Bali, you probably saw the stories, the smiles, the magic, the tropical vibes… and then after that I took a few days to integrate. And honestly… it’s been waves. Waves of guilt. Waves of emotion. Waves of severe anxiety. Panic. Catastrophising. Peacefulness. Calm. High highs. Low lows. All of it. All the feelings. Like someone turned the emotional volume up to MAX and then just left it there. There’s been a lot going on behind the scenes in my life. And I think that’s the bit we forget sometimes… we don’t always see the full picture of someone’s world. You see the retreat stories, the sunshine, the yoga, the “living the dream” stuff… but honestly, some of the stories happening behind the curtain, you couldn’t make this shit up. Like big time. All will be revealed at some point go sho , I’m sure I’ll laugh about parts of it in a week or two, because that’s what I do… but right now it has been turbulent. It has been A LOT LOT! So today I’m sat here on a tropical island, looking out at the ocean, and I’ve taken a full day to myself Eek On my own. I haven’t done that in many, many years. Just me. No Nami. No holding space. No performing. No solving. Just sitting. Being with myself and my thoughts. A vegan lasagna nom A glass of white wine more nom And this message to you whoop I don’t have a neat ending. I don’t have a lesson wrapped in a bow. I just know I’m working through this feeling of lostness. There’s confusion around some things. Big things. And I’m trusting that clarity will come, like it always does, eventually… fingers crossed, hey.

So we’re on DAY 8 of my SACRED AF retreat and truth be told… it was SACRED AF. It was MAGICAL AF. It was more than I can even put into words in just one post, and I know I need to actually go and PROCESS AND INTEGRATE it properly, because right now I’m also feeling physically, emotionally, and mentally DRAINED. And I’ve said it a few times, I really struggle to show up in here when I’m in this state. And within that, yeah, there have been waves of guilt, waves of fear about letting things go, waves of “should I be doing more” and all of that stuff that creeps in. But I just want to say that you are ALWAYS in my mind. MYM, the BACKROOM, my clients. Always. I paused all of my clients for one week, and for the next few days I’m heading to the beach to really ground myself, because this is actually my FIRST HOLIDAY IN TWO AND A HALF YEARS, and I need that space to come back into my body and back to… back to reality again. I’m totes really excited to be fully immersed back into these beautiful spaces towards the end of the week, with fresh energy and a clearer head. Let’s have a GORGEOUS WEEK. Lots of love. Thank you so much for your patience. Thank you for your support. And I’ll be sharing the full SACRED AF BALI stories very soon. And yes… the next retreat is in OCTOBER. 💛

SO HERE’S THE THING So I know I’ve already shared that I can’t be as present as I normally am, which I have been feeling a little bit of pressure about, but I’m not gonna keep harping on about that because HELLO, life is lifing. Instead I thought… what would be a really good way for me to still keep presence in this space without forcing myself to be everywhere all at once. So here I am, just telling you what’s actually going on, very much as it is, from the jungle, here in BALI. CONTEXT BECAUSE IT MATTERS DUH Yesterday, 13 beautiful ladies arrived on the SACRED AF retreat, which I’m running with my friend Lucy here in Bali, and honestly… oof. There has been a LOT of last-minute organising, and last week was hectic trying to run this online business, which I FUCKING LOVE, while also stepping into in-person retreats again after a long time. The venue is absolutely LUSH AF, tucked away in the jungle in Ubud, Bali, and when the women arrived, something just shifted straight away. CURRENTLY IN THE JUNGLE, FYI They all arrived, said their hellos, checked into their rooms, got welcome coconuts, we gave out personalised branded gift bags with water bottles and journals, and then we did a beautiful ceremony to make offerings to the Balinese gods. AND THIS PART FEELS TOTES IMPORTANT It was a brand new experience for most of them, and instantly the whole place felt grounded, safe, calm, and very held. There was a little bit of tiredness for me and Lucy, because hosting is A LOT, your eyes and ears are always on, you’re answering questions, holding space, running sessions, being present at all times, but me and Lucy have such a good balance working together, which honestly makes everything so much easier. FUNNY STORY TIME And here’s the funny bit. I met Lucy maybe six months ago here in Bali through a friend. We literally went for a beer together, and within TEN MINUTES we were like… “should we do a retreat?” And here we are. Actual real life. ANYWAY… BACK TO IT We did a few more bits last night, then the heavens opened, the rain poured, everyone was tired, and we all went to bed early.

when you are eating breakfast, for example, and yes, life is good, grateful all that stuff? But those uncontrollable tears just pop up out of nowhere, and you are like wtf is this (yes, I am having one of those ones)

Why am I posting this pic? Well, more, this little play on words, because it kept me awake all fricken night. I could not stop playing with words all night, so there you are, resting beach face. Init. (its out now, phew) That’s all.