ok i'm saying it… i'm actually so bloody proud of myself lately. been throwing myself out of my comfort zone constantly, new places, new cultures, new people, and yeah social anxiety usually kicks my arse but THIS weekend?? gone from the gurl who'd be in bed by 9pm hiding from the entire world to going on an actual kinda bender. not a messy one lol, i just mean i stayed OUT out. So it was Saturday evening, lil local local cafe opening (Bali peeps in a local Bali village), live music, went wiv a couple friends, met a load of new people, giggled my ass off, rang totally out of tune, way out of my comfort zone but somehow felt completely at ease?? got there at 6pm ish, home by 1:30am absolutely FREEZING btw. boiling in the day here but somehow grrrrr antarctica at night, make it make sense. in bed by 2am… up again at 4am. yes. you read that right. 2hr nap then straight back out driving through the pitch black freezing my boobies off to watch the England match at this Bar that randomly reminded me of a british pub type bar in the back of a dark room, I haven't watched football in like 15-20 yrs and the energy was HYPED AF. we could barely get a seat. England won (heart still kinda goes to Norway tho, they played bloody epic, but home country is home country, not touching the politics wiv a bargepole). Sunlight now up… One coffee to stay awake…did the job, one beer, done. Then saw the next game was an hour later so legged it for some food, came back, watched Argentina v Sweden the hell big bottle of water, vibes were again amazing… Got home at 1pm. so that's 8am one morning til 1pm the NEXT day on a 2 hour nap and honestly?? felt absolutely fine?? what the effers is wrong w me lol. bit spaced out last night, chilled, passed out on the sofa, slept like the dead, and now?? Energised as fuck. Welcome NEW WEEK, you beautiful things… let's be having u…