I’m feeling very lost right now, and I’m actually struggling to put it into words, which for me is saying something because HELLO… words are usually my thing. The last two weeks, you might have noticed things have been a little bit different. I haven’t really been running my online businesses the way I normally do, I haven’t been as present, as loud, as “on it”… and yes, they’ve still been running, and for that I am truly grateful, like totes grateful, but my energy has been elsewhere. I’ve been running an in-person retreat here in Bali, you probably saw the stories, the smiles, the magic, the tropical vibes… and then after that I took a few days to integrate. And honestly… it’s been waves. Waves of guilt. Waves of emotion. Waves of severe anxiety. Panic. Catastrophising. Peacefulness. Calm. High highs. Low lows. All of it. All the feelings. Like someone turned the emotional volume up to MAX and then just left it there. There’s been a lot going on behind the scenes in my life. And I think that’s the bit we forget sometimes… we don’t always see the full picture of someone’s world. You see the retreat stories, the sunshine, the yoga, the “living the dream” stuff… but honestly, some of the stories happening behind the curtain, you couldn’t make this shit up. Like big time. All will be revealed at some point go sho , I’m sure I’ll laugh about parts of it in a week or two, because that’s what I do… but right now it has been turbulent. It has been A LOT LOT! So today I’m sat here on a tropical island, looking out at the ocean, and I’ve taken a full day to myself Eek On my own. I haven’t done that in many, many years. Just me. No Nami. No holding space. No performing. No solving. Just sitting. Being with myself and my thoughts. A vegan lasagna nom A glass of white wine more nom And this message to you whoop I don’t have a neat ending. I don’t have a lesson wrapped in a bow. I just know I’m working through this feeling of lostness. There’s confusion around some things. Big things. And I’m trusting that clarity will come, like it always does, eventually… fingers crossed, hey.

So we’re on DAY 8 of my SACRED AF retreat and truth be told… it was SACRED AF. It was MAGICAL AF. It was more than I can even put into words in just one post, and I know I need to actually go and PROCESS AND INTEGRATE it properly, because right now I’m also feeling physically, emotionally, and mentally DRAINED. And I’ve said it a few times, I really struggle to show up in here when I’m in this state. And within that, yeah, there have been waves of guilt, waves of fear about letting things go, waves of “should I be doing more” and all of that stuff that creeps in. But I just want to say that you are ALWAYS in my mind. MYM, the BACKROOM, my clients. Always. I paused all of my clients for one week, and for the next few days I’m heading to the beach to really ground myself, because this is actually my FIRST HOLIDAY IN TWO AND A HALF YEARS, and I need that space to come back into my body and back to… back to reality again. I’m totes really excited to be fully immersed back into these beautiful spaces towards the end of the week, with fresh energy and a clearer head. Let’s have a GORGEOUS WEEK. Lots of love. Thank you so much for your patience. Thank you for your support. And I’ll be sharing the full SACRED AF BALI stories very soon. And yes… the next retreat is in OCTOBER. 💛

SO HERE’S THE THING So I know I’ve already shared that I can’t be as present as I normally am, which I have been feeling a little bit of pressure about, but I’m not gonna keep harping on about that because HELLO, life is lifing. Instead I thought… what would be a really good way for me to still keep presence in this space without forcing myself to be everywhere all at once. So here I am, just telling you what’s actually going on, very much as it is, from the jungle, here in BALI. CONTEXT BECAUSE IT MATTERS DUH Yesterday, 13 beautiful ladies arrived on the SACRED AF retreat, which I’m running with my friend Lucy here in Bali, and honestly… oof. There has been a LOT of last-minute organising, and last week was hectic trying to run this online business, which I FUCKING LOVE, while also stepping into in-person retreats again after a long time. The venue is absolutely LUSH AF, tucked away in the jungle in Ubud, Bali, and when the women arrived, something just shifted straight away. CURRENTLY IN THE JUNGLE, FYI They all arrived, said their hellos, checked into their rooms, got welcome coconuts, we gave out personalised branded gift bags with water bottles and journals, and then we did a beautiful ceremony to make offerings to the Balinese gods. AND THIS PART FEELS TOTES IMPORTANT It was a brand new experience for most of them, and instantly the whole place felt grounded, safe, calm, and very held. There was a little bit of tiredness for me and Lucy, because hosting is A LOT, your eyes and ears are always on, you’re answering questions, holding space, running sessions, being present at all times, but me and Lucy have such a good balance working together, which honestly makes everything so much easier. FUNNY STORY TIME And here’s the funny bit. I met Lucy maybe six months ago here in Bali through a friend. We literally went for a beer together, and within TEN MINUTES we were like… “should we do a retreat?” And here we are. Actual real life. ANYWAY… BACK TO IT We did a few more bits last night, then the heavens opened, the rain poured, everyone was tired, and we all went to bed early.

(MOST PEOPLE DO THIS BACKWARDS) WHAT IF… instead of writing another promo post that does the job (promotes) but nobody actually wants to READ, you turned it into something people actually stop at, nod along to, and think “oh holy guacamole… yeah… that’s me”. Because I keep seeing and hearing HEAPS of peeps saying things like “I don’t know what to talk about” or “I don’t really have anything to post right now” and every single time I hear that my brain goes… hmmmmmm… do you though? Or are you just bored of what you think you’re meant to say… Because usually what’s actually happening is people feel like they SHOULD be talking about their FEATURES, their OFFERS, their COMMUNITY UPDATES, their LINKS, their CALENDAR, their LATEST THING, and when that starts to feel forced or boring or same-same, they just… stop posting altogether. Which is fine, (all epic stuff btw) obvs. No judgement. I’ve done that. MANY MANY TIMES. But it is also the fastest way to sound like everyone else #gulp (blending in sucks) AND then feel a bit meh aka poop about showing up at all. here’s the bit I really wanna land, because this is the bit so many people miss while they’re overthinking their captions. YOU ARE ALREADY DOING THE CONTENT!!! Like… literally already living it. You’re IN it. You’re having the conversations. You’re having the wobbles. You’re having the WOOPS. You’re doing the actual thing you say you help people with… and then you just… don’t talk about THAT bit. And I reckon it’s because that bit feels too normal to you. Or too messy. Or not “finished” enough. Or you tell yourself “oh I’ll share this once I’ve figured it out” and then three weeks pass, you’ve moved on, and the GOLD has fully vanished. Poof. Gone. Bye Bye So instead of asking “what should I talk about”, which honestly makes most peeps freeze even harder and stare at the screen like it’s personally attacking them, I wanna flip the question completely. What did you ACTUALLY DO this week???? And I mean actually-actually.

NOT EVERYTHING IS MEANT TO BE GOT. AND I’M KINDA OK WITH THAT…. So I was in another community this morning. One of those spaces where you can ask for feedback on your About page. You know the ones. And I put the BACKROOM in there, partly out of curiosity, partly because I’m nosy, partly because I actually don’t mind when people say “I don’t get it.” I really don’t. No offence taken. ZERO. And guess what. A HEAPS A PEEPS didn’t get it. And honestly… I was like, yeah. That makes TOTES sense to me Because the BACKROOM isn’t meant to be got. It’s not a thing you read once and go “ah yes, I fully understand this concept.” It’s not a neat little box. It’s not a promise of one shiny outcome. It’s not “do X and you’ll get Y by Tuesday.” It’s not even really a product, if I’m being honest. It’s a SPACE. And that’s the bit people seem to struggle with a lot. Because we’re so used to needing to explain the outcome before we’re allowed to exist somewhere. I have been this person big time. What’s the result? What do I get? What will I be in three months? What’s the transformation? What’s the funnel? What’s the thingy thing? And the BACKROOM sits in that bit that many people skip. Or rush. Or avoid completely. It’s the bit BEFORE the action. Before the doing.Before the posting.Before the selling.Before the strategy. It’s the messy middle. The wobble. The thinking-out-loud. The saying-the-thing-before-you’re-ready bit. The “is it just me?” bit. The confidence wobble. The WOOP moments. The WOBBLE moments. The very HUMAN “I’m in it” bit. And yeah, people asked me things like “I’m not sure what you sell.” again I was like… yeah. Because tbf I’m not selling an outcome in here. Not a universal one anyway. The outcome is different for every single epic person inside. And that’s kinda the whole point. The outcome is that you get to be YOU.Right now As you totes are. Not future you.Not polished you.Not healed-you-with-a-bow-on-top. Just you. In it. With other humans. Doing life and business and community and creativity and doubt and excitement all at once.