[Personal Share] ... The Dark Night That's Changing Everything.

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Since winning the Skool Games Last year I've been in a Nigredo Season.

I first learned about this term when my mens group and I started working through one of Francis Weller programs back in 2020.

The Nigredo is a term used in Alchemy that signifies the initial, and often difficult, stage of the alchemical process, also known as the "blackening". It represents decomposition, putrefaction, and a state of chaos, symbolizing the breaking down of the old and corrupt to prepare for transformation.

This stage is often associated with the "dark night of the soul" and the confrontation with one's shadow self.

As far as Dark Nights of the Soul go... I've had worse.

But this was certainly one of them for me.

It started about 3 months before my 40th birthday when I began thinking a lot more of death and the awareness of the limited time that we have here on this planet... and getting really honest with myself about how I want to spend my next 40-60 years of life. (maybe more with A.I. advancements ...)

And that presence of death became even louder a few weeks ago when my 7 year old Niece had a seizure and passed away at cousin camp on the campgrounds surrounded by her entire family.

Her death has impacted me in a way that I've never really felt before.

I think I've been living for too long like we don't die.

But we do.

We all do. Our lives turn to dust and time goes on.

Her death has caused a deep awakening of that reality for me.

And what feels like the most honouring thing I can offer to my niece...

Is allowing her death to impact me and remind me of that reality daily...

to not to take another moment for granted.

And to stop living life like we don't die.

To stop playing small,

being scared,

avoiding conversations that need to be had or

pushing back things that need to get done.

I'm left with the thought that maybe we only really start living...

When we can embrace the reality that we die.

I am noticing how this is changing how I show up in my business and life already.

I'm done pushing things off till tomorrow.

I'm done playing other peoples games.

I'm done with any inauthenticities.

I'm done with surface-level connections and half-hearted commitments.

I'm done with tolerating misalignment because it's easier than having difficult conversations.

Life is too short for that.

And so...

over the next few days / weeks and months, I'll be refining this community and my business to be more in alignment for myself and my vision and the contribution I want to make in this space for the Purpose Driven Coaches & Consultants.

If you're reading this and you're committed to growing, to showing up authentically in your business and life - I see you.

You're exactly who this community is for.

We have new courses dropping soon that will reflect this deeper commitment to transformation - not just business tactics, but the inner work that creates lasting success.

If you notice things changing in how I show up from here on out...

now you have some of the context as to why.

Love y'all.

Go hug the people you love.

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