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Israel Vazquez

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Day 1 Homework (Redo)

Day 1 — Struggles & Wins (get real)

Clear out my response and input yours

5 Struggles

Anger Issues/Easily annoyed: When I was younger, I was told that I had really bad Anger and would lash out alot. There were times it would get so bad that they had to lock me in my room, and there was this specific moment where they tied my hands together and feet. I would miss out on family moments because I couldn't control my emotions
Self Image: When I entered middle school, I was in a whole different district and had No-one that I knew. I tried to make some friends, and I did here and there but overall nobody didnt really fuck with me like that. I was an outcast, rumors were being spread around when they didn't even know me, saying I was gay and a lot of other stuff, all stuff I never knew until I reached highSchool.
Low confidence: I’m not a man whore but I’ve had a bunch of talking stages and they usually for some reason don't work out. I'll be patient and be the gentleman my ma and pa raised me to be; and every time we stopped talking they would immediately find someone else while I was still stuck on a person that was never mine. It made me overthink what the other person had that I didn't, money? More bitches? More rizz? No se no sabes (Translation: I don't know, you know). But what got to me the most… “was it my looks?”
Shutting down: When something doesn't go the right way or something that affects me emotionally, I shut down and get quiet. I go into my mind and my mind starts racing with thoughts they could be angry thoughts, sad thoughts, questions, confusion and I just get stuck in my mind. “Why did it go wrong” “How did it go wrong”. I remember I failed a bench pr with no spotter when I first started and damn near almost choked myself, some gymbro came out of nowhere and helped me. I pretended like nothing happened and tried to go on with my workout until my anxiety got the best of me which made me leave. On my way home I was beating myself up because I saw myself as a “Failure” that day.
Not wanting to be alone: When I was in high school about to graduate, I was anxious about being alone after. My “bestfriend” was drifting away and my off and on talking stage all throughout high school found someone better for her and I started to feel like I was just by myself. I hated it

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5 Contrasting Wins:

Healing: I think the reason why I had so much anger back then was because I dealt with a lot, and within time I was able to heal from what had happened, because I learned to forgive and give grace. I started having more patience with other people and even with myself. There are times that I still struggle with this issue but I will always be man enough to tell people I am wrong for doing so.
Self care: When Covid-19 hit and everyone was in lockdown, (7th-8th grade) I started caring about my health, started hitting the gym, eating healthy and working on my mental fortitude. So when I entered freshman year of highschool, I had some size on me and others realized, and even this guy that used to bully me. He came up to me and said “Israel, in middle school, I was able to beat the shit out of you… but now, you're able to beat the SHIT out of me!” Another dude I tried to be friends with in middle school eventually got to know me in high school and said “I remember people said you were gay and weird, but you’re one of the coolest dudes I’ve met” and saying “I wish I could’ve been friends with you sooner”
Dream Girl: A few years ago, I had this biggest gym crush on this one woman that I thought I could never bag, I thought she was WAYYY out of my league. One day I was getting ready to head out of the gym and SHE came up to me, asked for my socials. I thought it was a joke at first or she was gonna call the cops because of how much I stared at her. But no, we started texting and meeting outside the gym. We made a connection and were like two peas and a pod, eventually though, we had to separate ways because of life.
Mental fortitude: Eventually I realized my physique wasn't the only thing that didn't need work on but even my mental fortitude. I watched videos and superhero movies, realizing even superheroes even fail sometimes, but the reason why they’re called heroes is because they don't stop trying; trying isn't failing but not trying is failing. I realized most people aren't even trying to better themselves but there I am biking 20 minutes to the gym everyday just so I can better myself. So when I fail a pr, it's just another Tuesday.
Being alone is fine: Now, I don't mind being myself, I realized it was a problem that I needed to feel like someone should always be around me. But once I realized how peaceful it was, I started enjoying it more, I was able to focus more on my desired goals and I also realized I didn't have to deal with all the high school drama anymore. My mindset is now “If you want to be around me, you can. But if you don't like who I am, the door is over there”

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Circled Contrasting Win (to use this week): Self Image

Hooks

Why do you need other people's approval… when changing your life is what earns their respect?!
I thought people who doubted me would never admit it... but one sentence from my old bully proved me wrong.
Why does everyone focus on getting revenge on the people who hurt them? I did something different and what happened to me was way more satisfying than revenge.

Relatability, motivation, and maybe reconsideration

(Hook) - “Why does everyone focus on getting revenge on the people who hurt them? ”

(Visual) - talking to the camera - (Cuts)- man running up to someone and beating the BRICKS out of someone

(VO) - “I did something different and what happened to me was way more satisfying than revenge.”

(Visual) Showing old photos and videos of me in middleschool

(VO) This was me in middle school, I didn't know anybody, I didn't really have many friends at the time. People never gave me a chance to become friends with them, So i started focusing on myself

(Visual) showing old videos of me starting my gym journey

(VO) When I got to high school, a bunch of people who didn't give me a chance started to get to know me.

(Visual) Cutting back and forth from me talking to the camera to old videos from highschool

(VO) when one of my old bullies goes “Israel, I could've beat the shit out of you in middle school… but now, you can beat the hell out of me!” and another person said “alot of people told me that you were gay/weird so I stayed away, but now I'm getting to know you. You're one of the coolest people I've met” Wishing that he became friends with me awhile back!

(VO) I gained their respect by just focusing on myself and stop trying to pretend to fit in. I started acting like myself and they fucked with me. Crazy how stories turn out, right?

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