Day 1 — Struggles & Wins (get real) Clear out my response and input yours 5 Struggles - Anger Issues/Easily annoyed: When I was younger, I was told that I had really bad Anger and would lash out alot. There were times it would get so bad that they had to lock me in my room, and there was this specific moment where they tied my hands together and feet. I would miss out on family moments because I couldn't control my emotions - Self Image: When I entered middle school, I was in a whole different district and had No-one that I knew. I tried to make some friends, and I did here and there but overall nobody didnt really fuck with me like that. I was an outcast, rumors were being spread around when they didn't even know me, saying I was gay and a lot of other stuff, all stuff I never knew until I reached highSchool. - Low confidence: I’m not a man whore but I’ve had a bunch of talking stages and they usually for some reason don't work out. I'll be patient and be the gentleman my ma and pa raised me to be; and every time we stopped talking they would immediately find someone else while I was still stuck on a person that was never mine. It made me overthink what the other person had that I didn't, money? More bitches? More rizz? No se no sabes (Translation: I don't know, you know). But what got to me the most… “was it my looks?” - Shutting down: When something doesn't go the right way or something that affects me emotionally, I shut down and get quiet. I go into my mind and my mind starts racing with thoughts they could be angry thoughts, sad thoughts, questions, confusion and I just get stuck in my mind. “Why did it go wrong” “How did it go wrong”. I remember I failed a bench pr with no spotter when I first started and damn near almost choked myself, some gymbro came out of nowhere and helped me. I pretended like nothing happened and tried to go on with my workout until my anxiety got the best of me which made me leave. On my way home I was beating myself up because I saw myself as a “Failure” that day. - Not wanting to be alone: When I was in high school about to graduate, I was anxious about being alone after. My “bestfriend” was drifting away and my off and on talking stage all throughout high school found someone better for her and I started to feel like I was just by myself. I hated it