5 Struggles: 1. I sacrificed my own life serving others. I’d take on their emotional burdens as my own, and the feeling of being needed would bring me validation. I was always an empath and ended up putting everyone else first, forgetting about my own needs. When I hit rock bottom (this spring), I realized I had no one I can go to because everyone was focused on themselves and used to Kuba being the support. 2. On the outside I always seemed cool, but deep down struggled with self-worth. I always looked at everyone else as smarter and more capable. This is why I never went all in on myself, and yet was so good at supporting others and lifting them up, seeking counsel from them and ignoring my own intuition. I would basically need external permission to live my life, and I’d do it on their terms, not my actual heart’s desires, because after all, “they know better” right? 3. Man I was always so shy, scared of girls. I remember my first communion, I had to walk beside one of the girls down the aisle. As soon as we got to the end, I ran away! Something in me would shake and tremble at the thought of approaching a girl I like, I’d keep my feelings secret for months, years, hoping one day she’d catch on. Friendzone is where I’d always end up. I was a 30 year old virgin. 4. I was always broke. Growing up I’d see my parents always stressed about finances. I’d see my friends have more money, and I accepted the identity of “just getting by”. Even when I started making good money online, I’d somehow always end up even. I would make my career decisions out of fear of survival instead of what I actually wanted. 5. I sacrificed my family and friends in Canada to start a new life in Spain. I spent 6 years grinding, always ‘busy’ with clients and work. I missed some important years of my nieces and nephews growing up. I barely talk to my loved ones, all in the name of the ‘hustle’. After 6 years, I still ended up broke while making so many others richer, and wonder why I wasted those years.