Today is my mom’s 53rd birthday… and tomorrow she goes into surgery for breast cancer. And my birthday is Sunday. And honestly? This is a whole fucked up mix of emotions I don’t even know how to process. How am I supposed to celebrate when my mom is sitting here in pain… scared… facing all these what-ifs? How do I smile and act like everything’s okay when it’s not? I’m angry. I’m scared. I’m overwhelmed as hell. I’m scared of losing my mom. I said it. Cancer is a word that hits different when it’s YOUR person. And ever since March, it’s been one emotional storm after another… and today it’s hitting me hard. What hurts even more? I lost time with her before because of family struggles. Time I can never get back. And now that we’re finally finding our way back to each other… it feels like life is trying to rip her away before we even get the chance to fully heal and be close again. That shit hurts. Deep. Yeah, I’m going off grid for a couple days… trying to breathe, trying to reset… but let’s be real—my anxiety is through the roof, my depression is loud, and my heart feels like it’s getting pulled in a million directions. So I’m asking… no pride, no filter— Pray for my mom. Michelle. Pray for her strength. Pray for her peace. Pray for healing. Pray she comes out of this surgery safe and still here with me. Because I’m not ready to lose her. Not now. Not like this. 🖤 Spartan Kai

Heads up this post contains a rhetorical question. Too whichI already know the answer. So good day , a teammate and I ran a deka of a mile we busted our best time in that event.By like ten minutes , so competition was it was a good day. But we were slated to run between 1130 and 12, but then we're running a little behind at the gym that was hosting, which may or may not be true. I don't know So our time Kemp, getting pushed and pushed and pushed\nUntil it was two o'clock in , we were the last to go. Side note, I am trying to get a job at this gym.Several times and I keep getting the same response from the ownership we don't know how our clients woodland respond to a trainer who has additional.So unfortunately , we armed going to offer you a position. Back to today we were the last team to go , but they made sure on their clients went first. Which i'm used to this but here's the question. Why is it so hard for me as a disabled athlete who puts their money on the same line that able bodied athletes to get the same respect that those able-bodiedto athletes get? I put my body on the same line, sometimes even more.\n And yet I'm still fighting the prejudice, even though I'm doing the same things, they are

It's made weak a k a hump day how's everybody feeling? How can we help each other get through the back end of the week?

Standard day everybody! So here's a question for you guys. We , as a leadership group are trying to make this place, everybody feels welcome, and everybody feels safe to talk about their struggles.And just this stuff they don't normally like to talk about. So what would you guys like to see\nTo make it easier to talk about that stuff here?

Hey guys I wanted to mention something. We want HDC to reach as many people as possible. So don't be afraid to hit the share button. And if you aren't sure where it is let me know. Because mental health is one of those things that takes a village.