I have had a dream of sharing my story in hopes of inspiring other men and raise awareness of the importance of mental health. At my heaviest I was always the biggest guy in the room, and I just wanted to be invisible, and felt like apologizing for my existence. I don't need the accolades and the haters don't phase me. I feel the pain behind the hate and can have empathy for them. Somehow I feel it is a fear of success, and I can not seem to wrap my head around that.