In the last few weeks and months, I have been feeling really disconnected from the people in my life (especially when it comes to friendships). In some friendships, I realised that I might be putting in more effort than they are. I have decided to pull back and allow them to reach out, but I also know that they might not ever reach out. This is quite sad because I have had a few occasions where friendships have come to an end without any real reason. Situations like this can trigger a sense of abandonment and make me feel like I am doing something wrong (which is something that I know I need to work through) Recently I have had a disagreement with another friend who I have been friends with for 10 years. Although the disagreement was not big, it made me feel like she no longer understands me and I feel like I can't be myself around her. I notice myself constantly filtering thoughts so that she doesn't get triggered or upset. I also notice that I am the friend that she offloads to. It seems like her other friendships are filled with fun, excitement, planning holidays and making memories, whereas, with me it seems like we always talk about what is going wrong in her life. Although I believe part of a friendship should be about helping each other through hard times, I would love to also be apart of the happy/fun moments too. Recently I have been doing a lot of nervous system work to find balance through somatic practices. I am learning so much and I feel like I am becoming a new person. I know this would be a huge reason why I feel so disconnected from my current friendships. I am currently 26 and thought that I would have my core group of friends now. Although I have family that I am close to and I am very grateful for them I feel like I have not met my tribe. I know that everyone says that your Saturn Return starts at 27, It is an age that I have been warned about so many times and I would really like to go through this phase of life with as much ease as possible.