I’m post-breakup, completely destroyed this time. Ever regret that striving for insight and becoming better and healing inner wounds? Why not just enjoy a good laugh, or simply be present and be grateful for the little things. A loving touch. I have had major breakthroughs these last 2 years, but they cost me the love of my life. She got magnetically discarded fast. I’m sitting here looking into solitude and monkhood as a sentence and deeply loathe it. Why are we wired toward inner work when it shatters our reality and all that matters? I regret it all and wish I’d just let it be. I would have been happy. I feel it was an overachievement. A breakthrough I wasn’t ready for. Can we get on a wrong path? I sure as hell will not live and die alone. If my spiritual path is solitude, I reject it and refuse it.

This is why ... 1. The First Love It happens when we're young. You believe it will last forever. You love without fear, without caution, and without knowing how much a heart can hurt. You see the best in them. You imagine a future together. You think love is enough. And even if it doesn't last... it teaches you what it feels like to open your heart for the first time. 2. The Second Love The one that breaks you. The one that changes you. This love arrives to teach lessons the first one couldn't. It teaches heartbreak. It teaches disappointment. It teaches boundaries. It teaches self-worth. You cry more. You question more. You learn more. This is the love that forces you to grow. The one that shows you what love should be... and what it should never be. 3. The Third Love It arrives when you least expect it. Not when you're looking. Not when you're trying to force it. It simply appears. And somehow... it feels different. There are fewer games. Less confusion. Less chasing. You don't have to pretend. You don't have to convince. You don't have to constantly wonder where you stand. Your walls slowly come down. Trust returns. And for the first time... love feels peaceful instead of exhausting. It feels like home. - The first love teaches you how to love. - The second love teaches you how to grow. - The third love teaches you how love should feel. And that's when you finally understand... why the others didn't last. Because some people come into your life to stay. And some come into your life to prepare you for the one who always be by your side.