Loving these breakthroughs! · High Vibe Tribe

Mar 19 (edited) • Magnetic Love Reset Posts

Loving these breakthroughs!

Aaron Doughty where have you been all my life! 😁 I’ve recently separated from my partner of 13 years, we have a 10 year old. Due to financial constraints at the moment, I’ve moved to the other side of the house. I knew we had a toxic dynamic going on, we always have and we’ve separated twice before because of this. What I didn’t see clearly was what I was doing! I’ve done inner child work before but this was like a laser beam! I’ve been scared to death of conflict so running back everytime to the person that hurts me. Managing his emotions to avoid mine. I’ve just done day 5 of the reset and I’ll be honest I’d been putting this off but I’m so glad I pushed through - my son was ill this morning and my ex was being unkind to him, telling him to man up etc. and just not having any empathy. I walked in to my son eating breakfast with tears in his eyes. I comforted him and gave him medicine and he went to school. I felt really off so I thought let’s do lesson 5…and again it hit me…I felt so off because I kept my self small, I didn’t protect my son in the way I wanted to, to avoid conflict. I explored the feeling of being trapped and I noticed this is my dominant feeling in the relationship, the feeling that stops me fully being present with said partner. I’m not trapped in a difficult dynamic I’m holding myself back! Again! I took my power back by messaging the school. I then noticed myself being wishy washy about who was making dinner and then bam it was there! I’m constantly giving my power over in the smallest of ways, that add up to me losing space in my home, my life, with my son! When I don’t choose, I lose space! This is all from the fear of this people pleasing, I don’t want conflict dynamic! Phew…

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