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BREAKTHROUGH

So if you read my last post, I was in a very uncomfy place. I couldn't get myself to do the breath, I couldn't get out into nature, I couldn't do all the things that would benefit myself. (I mean, I physically could, but didn't.)

So what did I do? I gave myself a day. I grieved. I felt anger, despair, powerlessness, hopelessness, fear, and anxiety. I drank a big glass of wine and enjoyed some amazing chocolate from Honey Mamas. I doomscrolled to see everything. I scrolled and watched myself grow weary. I scrolled and watched myself want to stop, but listened to the voice that said, "Just one more swipe." I scrolled until I noticed it was all the same: there's fear, there's truth, there's lies, there are funny things, there are heartwarming things, just all the things. And I brought presence and awareness to all parts of myself...the physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. I scrolled until I overflowed with it all. When I absolutely couldn't do it anymore, I watched a movie and ate chips.

I went to bed and noticed that night, I had the best sleep score in ages. I woke up feeling better. (after a whole day of doing it "all wrong"!)

The next day, I found myself still wanting to "know"... what is going on? What will happen to my family in Abu Dhabi? What will happen to the people in all of the areas? What will happen to this country, that country, the world?

And that's when it hit me. We are all on our own adventure. Together, always, but alone. My little sister and her family are living their adventure, collecting stories and experiences, as are you and I. This is why we are here. I don't need to control or fix anything. That would be like taking the controller away from someone in the middle of an intense video game and getting them out of a pickle. That's not fun. We all get to play our own game, take our own turn, and remember who and what we really are, and where we are going when we complete this level. It's all good! Maybe instead of yelling at Zelda when it gets challenging, I laugh and enjoy the challenge. Game on!

So if you see me whining again, just remind me of this. hahaha

Thank you for being such a beautiful and supportive community! And hit me if you loved Zelda. lol (It's been a long time since I've played video games.)

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