I woke up around 11:10 am from an interesting dream. I didn't want to wake up due to feeling aches and the cold. My sleeping habits aren't constant due to my job and my broken toe. I've had to deal with these conditions because of a legal situation, my health has taken a huge hit from my "normal" life. I wrote down the things in my dream in the simplist way and began my meditation. I chose to focus on "passing" because I passed two spiritual test in my dream. I'm trying to breath and find comfort. My nostrils dry, the light hurting and I cant concentrate. I passed, I passed, I need black out curtains. Trying to relax, I passed, I passed, I cant concentrate I cant breath, Im not happy, im not comfortable. I hear my mother talking to my sister I love my sister. Im forcing myself to focus to concentrate, I remember its okay to have thoughts, a slight relief. My head hurts but I passed the sex test, I passed the fear test, I actually passed the self control test. I focus on passing the thought of passing my work situation and legal situation. Too many distractions I don't feel well, breath, breath. Before I know it my time was completed.... i then continued to write my Awareness experience simply. Then I remembered the last "chapter" of my dream and had to jotted it down beside the Awareness notes. I had the most vivid dream experience that deep within I was proud but I still feel like sh...

Today I feel so grateful that ... I let go of the mentality of if they are my friend or in my close circle ... they know me or understand me who I am well.. its ok we do have our own blind spots with good amount of Self awareness.. why we should put pressure on others though weird thought turned into gratitude for me 🙈

This is of big deal to me I completed reading goals its blend of fiction non fiction audiobook still I pushed myself out of my comfort zone and i made it before December yaaaay

I just realized how much Irah has helped me along my journey. I wanna say thank you for choosing the path you did Irah, because if you hadn't had chosen this path, I wouldn't be where I am today and I wouldn't be who I am today. I would still be stuck in a cycle I don't like and clueless about the reason I why I'd be still stuck, despite trying a ton of different methods. I haven't seen anyone else talk about what you talk about (law of gender), about it's importance and why it's important. Thank you so much.💕

Took the quiz and got 26 points. I need to have rituals everyday that I stick with as well as taking action towards my goals. I am grateful for the insight. I am working with my higher self.