The mask I've been wearing most: People pleaser and performer. Both of those have led to some aspects of the invisible role, but the disappearing wasn't something I actively did.
It has cost me a lot. I have gotten a little better with the people pleasing, but not by much. I have played that role so long that I often find myself doing it before I even realize it. I walk around with this boiling gut full of resentment and anger, which are really self-defense against the hurt of it all.
What I loved as a kid (before the masks): drawing, coloring, painting whole worlds with casts full of original characters (comics were my big influence) and making mock radio shows in which I created stories, personalities and voices, goofy original songs.
Friction Audit complete, this are the exact steps I have to take for my open loops (voiceover auditions):
- 1. walk into the studio room
- 2. turn on the light
- 3. go into my booth
- 4. plug audio interface into computer
- 5. plug microphone and headphones into audio interface
- 6. turn on computer
- 7. open Adobe Audition
- 8. start a new file
- 9. get out scripts
- 10. check dB levels in Adobe Audition
- 11. relax, breathe and warm up with lip trills and scales
- 12. press record
- 13. read script
- 14. hit stop button
- 15. listen to playback
- 16. save the file
- 17. email the file (or not)