I have a PT session at 10am and my anxiety is high (not caused by the thought of the gym, but my autism). I feel like crying and not going but I know I’ll go. Still may cry though. UPDATE BELOW IN COMMENTS…

I've just read jamie wants a before and after photo. I've so gone early with inhaler I should have saved it for the grand reveal 😂😂 Can't even remember the prizes 31 days on. All I know is every single one of us has moved forward in our lives and are winners to me !! Not sure if I want ro win any now, I've still got the no snoozes to beat (I managed most of the month) and snacking I have given in 4 days this month and loved every chocolate and cake I've eaten

Waist measurement is down from 33inches to 31in - over the moon with this. Muscles are up 💪🏻 Phase angle has improved (had to look that one up 😄) Weight is down again after upping the cardio and the calorie deficit. But the heaviest loss has been from my mind 🧠 The 30 day reset has been a blast and much needed focus and distraction for me personally. I think the first post/question I put on here was to ask for music recommendations to motivate. I feel I can say now that the main reason was that at that time I'd gone to the gym to try get back into it, I was listening to one of my playlists and Imagine Dragons 'My Life' came on. I don't know if you've heard it but it's a very powerful, beautiful, raw song. As the lyrics hit I'd never related to a song chorus more in all my life (just not the drug abuse reference!) and my eyes filled with tears in the gym. Nobody saw thank God 🙏🏻 (mortified) but I needed your music recommendations more than you knew! I realised I am emotionally tied to most of my music 😄 and don't just hear I feel. Last night I listened to my beloved Imagine Dragons whilst I had soak in the bath (my abused legs needed it) and I felt differently 🫶🏻💪🏻 this past Month really has changed 'my life'. Mojo back ✅ Mindset back ✅ Let's keep moving onwards and upwards team 🙌🏻 You're all amazing ✨

Put on 1lb this week. I've decided to restart the bigg30 and redo for April. You guys are the proof it definately works. Honestly, I've struggled since my attack and a part time attempt is not good enough for me. It's definately limited the damage but I need the willpower to not give up and start afresh in the morning. Once you do it once its an easy landslide to fall into. I'm not feeling sorry for myself just being honest. Sometimes habits take a bit longer to establish but I'll catch you up 😉

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