Hey I just wanted to say thank you L&S for giving me an opportunity to heal learn evolve n connect. I always feel honored n appreciative to be a part of anything that you all have going on. Thank you both ❤️ After being in my house for 21yrs life n the divine powers that be have decided that there is no more putting this move off. So after meeting with 3 realtors I have decided on the 1 to list my house. The goal dates are between March n April 1st n its bittersweet. My children grew up in this house n I worked very hard to maintain this house. I believe that selling it will get me out of survival mode. Ive been in survival mode the majority of the time that I have lived here n that is unhealthy on so many levels but its really not good on my nervous system especially while im trying to correct cervical dystonia. Its super important for me to be very kind loving n gentle on myself n find strategies to stay calm. Selling the house is going to bring financial blessings n I will be able to have the rest of the mercury professionally removed from my mouth. These removals must be completed by dentists that specialize in these procedures. Regular dentists could accidentally cause more mercury to get into my blood stream n cause the neurological symptoms to worsen In irreversible ways. Its $1000s to have this work completed n I am truly blessed to be able to have assets that will bring major profits. Im very blessed for this opportunity. Its emotional. Im trying my best to stay grounded. Im also trying to get excited about thus new exciting phase of my journey. Theres so much to do n i work 2 jobs. Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I get excited when thinking about moving in to an apartment for the 1st time in over 20 yrs n then sometimes I cry. Its truly bittersweet. I am proud of myself but ive learned from deciding to sell as well as the dystonia symptoms that my life today is 1 step at a time. 1 day at a time. Not putting pressure on myself. Im busy but I haven't left ✌️ ❤️ 🫂 💋 😘

After dealing with 4 different Dr's cat scans n xrays since the 1st part of 2025 it was actually a cervical chiropractor in May that found the dystonia symptoms. Dystonia is very scary n painful. He advised me to have the mercury fillings removed ASAP by a professional bio dentist n to go onto an anti inflammatory diet as well as a heavy metal detox n also I needed someone to be there to help me with decision making. The 1st 6 months of this was really intense n scary like I looked n felt like I have Parkinsons I couldnt sit down to eat im left handed n i had to start learning how to do things with my right hand My head would not stop pulling n shaking the brain fog n stuttering was completely overwhelming 😔 😕 😢 😭 😿 How does 1 thats been in survival mode for the past 21 yrs ask for help Asking for help always meant being lectured as to why im in this position. ((the cringiest was you made your bed now lay in it. 🤮) Drama. Gossip. Or just flat out abandoned. 😕 😞 On Nov 10th I sat with my 26yr old son n said I need help. Its cost 1000s to have work done n its gonna be 1000s more to complete the work that insurance simply won't cover. I could go on n on from replacing all 4 tires to the water heater to the gutters cuz it was raining in the house to the cbdN for the pain. No chemicals in shampoos soaps cleaning products everything started to add up n selling my house is the only way out. I had to tell my son. Everything. Even my fears of being stuck like this 😕 I had to tell him everything n for the 1st time in my life someone held me n said I got you. I love you n im here for you. My son rubbed my face n held me. Thats connection. Not having to be in survival mode Not feeling like ive failed Being held n understood the pain is real even if the fear is not. My son gave me $500 ( even if he had nothing to give but that hug that was what I needed ) I couldn't remember the last time someone held me like that That is connection n that is healing Thank you all for allowing me to feel safe to share 🙏

jut in case you missed it.... was amazing time.... let us know below if you would like us to discuss anything else next Sunday...

Pause for a moment before reading on. Not to think. Not to understand. Just notice your body where you’re sitting. Is there tension anywhere? A holding? A subtle bracing you weren’t aware of until now? Many of us learned very early that our inner experience was too much. Not through words but through tone, timing, withdrawal. Through the moment your tears met impatience instead of arms. Through the sigh that followed your anger. Through the warmth that only arrived when you were calm, agreeable, quiet. What did your body learn in those moments? For many, a silent agreement formed long before language: My feelings create problems. My sensations disrupt connection. And so a protocol was installed. When something rises inside you now sadness, fear, excitement, need what happens first? Do you feel it…or do you immediately scan the room? You were brilliant. Your nervous system adapted exactly as it needed to. It learned to track others instead of yourself. To calculate impact instead of staying with sensation. To leave your body in order to preserve the connection you depended on to survive. Can you sense how young that strategy is? This isn’t a flaw. It's loyalty. And it often becomes the longest relationship you’ll ever have the habit of self-abandonment. Notice what happens in your body as you read that. Does anything soften? Does anything tighten? Over time, this protocol becomes so familiar it feels like who you are. You become fluent in others anticipating moods, managing reactions, smoothing edges while your own inner landscape grows quiet, encrypted, distant. When was the last time you trusted a sensation without needing to justify it? That clench in your gut that says no. That heaviness in your chest that says this hurts. That pull toward rest, space, or truth. If you learned that love required manageability, what did you have to give up to stay connected? This is how spiritual homelessness begins not as drama, but as dislocation.