@Lee Patterson unfortunately no

@Lee Patterson I would love to be just held by someone who meets me where I am at .

Trying to connect with people again I have been in Isolation too long .

God would be asking me to stop punishing myself and let go of the dogmatic rules of catholism that have raged throughout my veins from a young age . He would be asking me to let go of the rules of faith that have followed me throughout my life .

When I met my now recent ex partner I was in a great place emotionally. I was unafraid , great on my own , not needing anyone to complete me . My version of me was good and I believe my frequency came from a place of stability, calmness , fullness and ok with being on my own . My vibration was good so I ask myself now what could of possibly have gone wrong . I read somewhere that the wrong person will meet you in your good place and the right person will meet you in a bad place and lift you up . My version of my now ex is mirrored by the fact that I have a tendancy towards rescuing others from despair and trying to fix them and in trying to fix them it feels as if I am trying to fix myself. I gravitate towards those with unhealed childhood wounds which is a reflection of myself . What I believe I have been going through is a massive lesson in healing generational wounds because of childhood wounds . Many of my connections have ended up reminding me of the connection to my mother which through no fault of her own is very dismissive. My vibration was high 5 years ago I was operating from a place of level headed sanity however , that mirror was cracked like someone had taken a rock and thrown it at me so what does this say about me , about them and how do I heal this connection in separation. No labels I just need to heal me , heal the connections and move on into a connection that is healthy , safe and nutured but hey it all starts with me .💙💙

Struggling with loneliness