@Lee Patterson reading the PDF book starting to recognise what this all means . It seems we are connected through nervous systems . It makes sense and without blame i realise why humans can become disregulated . I see if a mother has trauma that trauma get wired down to her baby which is why i see it as generational . Heal the nervous system heal connection . After I first met you both over zoom I went on a 5 year study of attachment theory you know secure , insecure , anxious , avoidant etc etc . My baseline attachement was fearful- Avoidant I never learned how to regulate it hence runner / chaser cycles . I realised i dont want to run anymore at least not from myself . No more running but in not running my disregulated system is trying to adjust to standing still and thats the hurdle . I am not saying it cannot be fixed or healed I am saying it is something i am ready to feel . It is painful but the only other option is staying on the hamster wheel and i am tired of that ❤️❤️

@Lee Patterson ready to throw that rusty hamster wheel in the wheely bin 😊

I may need you later down the road . EMDR has a two year waiting list in the UK . I am still up for root camp once that finalised payment comes through ❤️❤️

@Lee Patterson I spoke to my brother in quite some months tonight something has budged a huge fight caused by him giving up and accepting to meet me . Looks like i am the first in the bloodline to crack open the cage . Massive egos in my family .

Lee and sherry you guys rock . You speak what my soul hungers . My recent sitiation i realised was not unique from connection i have had before . This last few months my body has been letting me know it needs to do the work to heal and bring me back to the one person that needs to feel safe again .