My biggest mistake in my journey of self improvement
TLDR: I was planning and trying to solve problems in my journal, instead of doing the hard work. When I first came across Dino on my TikTok, I tried one of his advices on finishing tasks, which was using the checkpoint system. It works so well to the point where I still use it to this day especially for my studies. From that point on I knew the advice he gave out wasn't just for views. The next thing I adapted but journaling. I knew journalling way before I came across Dino but I overcomplicated it. I would buy a new book, a new pen just to not write anything and promising myself I would write tomorrow. Eventually, I started using Notion for Journaling, I started journalling starting June 23th 2025 until now, without missing a single day. Some days I wrote alot, some days I wrote small. The first month or two was a blast for me. Through journaling I could see how evil, envious and crazy I was. I was living in my head every single day, heavily envious of some people. In short: I was mentally really ill. From that point on, journalling helped me really know about myself to the deepest level with full honesty. That helped me changed alot of things, improve parts of myself and be more aware of my own actions. I was improving mentally every single day from talking to myself. I was hyped, I thought if I continue this I would be unstoppable. What happened is that, I started to chase the dopamine of instant growth/clarity. Journaling helped me alot mentally but only because I was clearing all the cache in my head. I started journalling about what I want to do tomorrow, how I'm gonna solve problems in my life. I was obsessed with having "breakthroughs". Like I would journal to expect to get an instant answer to a problem without actions. Eventually it lead me to not trusting myself like I used to. I went on a spiral for weeks and weeks after that. Because I thought nothing was "going my way". Then difficult times came for me when my father was hospitalized. I didn't have time to think, I just had to do. There was no time to plan/solve on my notion with a thousand words. I have to go, come back, talk to doctors, go buy medicine, talk to the guests that came to visit my dad. For me even talking to someone was hard because of all my mental issues back then. But that sudden test from God showed me that, actions through uncomfortable situations are what make people actually grow.