@Steve Markham This is why I won’t bother in the future. No response, no understanding, seemingly no ability to understand. Even with that little bit that I feel should be easier to understand.

@Steve Markham but see this is also what I mean. You are judging without knowing the entirety. As if I am stuck in the past only. No. Sometimes tbat stuff comes up for sure. But that isn’t the driver here. It’s everything that is now in the present. There are things in the present that they still have control over in a way that needs more explaining. The present physical problems are very bad along with that so when the pain gets bad that also reminds me of what they’ve done. That’s usually when I get more angry, because I’d never be in tbis position where it’s hard to walk and/or just get out and do thing, or even just wearing clothing at all with the nerve pain.

@Jessica Garcia That’s nice of you to say. I don’t really want to read this thread based on the fact it wasn’t me more so than the pain. the latest thread I made I was more in control and less in pain. But I can’t scratch the surface anyway and I still have little faith of being understood in totality.

@Calvin Coulter well I posted again a few days ago trying to type without such anger and pain involved. I don’t feel well at all today. I wish I could just go for a run or a walk in the sunlight and be near the animals in the forest for just some time. I am very much depleted.

The thing is rey as I’ve already proven, this is only possible if you’re not a prisoner to the extent it becomes nearly impossible or more than just temporary and unsustainable. I am still being abused through the means of control remaining. This is why I really don’t like you because you tell partial truths and you deny and discount people like myself. I already did the tjings you did bur better over a lifetime bur guess what I ahd family thar enjoyed hurting me and had the conteol to keep doing it. Stole my money stole every way around that I found, continued to lie whike I was already confined to a bed, understood every pain I had from root to tip, and how to fix many of them, but still not allowed to fix them because they still maintained control through the financial and by exploiting my pains to such a degree there was no room for anything else or only temporarily but not sustainable and very predictable … continuous loops… created imagery to cover, made sure there’s no way to have justice or a way out of it because it was done covertly and in a world where barely anyone sees anything and most are totally blind… wtf you think happens? The thing here is you all have had leeway and room to breathe. You will never give credit that I do not have enough room and who is responsible. I am not responsible for this. And I will not be blamed for whats actively still being done to me just through means that people cannot comprehend or refuse to acknowledge honestly. This world is so sick. And maybe I’m just an anomaly that truly cares rather than to be so selfish and deny people cus it’s easier. If the control was given back to me my parents would not be allowed to sabotage and destory eveey way I have found tk habe peace. That’s why I’m in a room that’s dark right now and there’s a bed my dad bought that I cannot even use taking up the good room while I need to do that laying down until I heal my body enough to stand more agaij and walk more wtc … People cannot ever follow …too many details… I have to stop or it’ll be forever… meanwhile I forgot - nobody cares anyway. I was brainwashed thinking tbis world acrually cares like I do ..

Intuition is an amalgamation of your past experiences and what you’ve learned from them and your subconscious intelligence and potential inherent root knowledge. So anxiety can be part of what shaped it to some degree, and separate from that; anxiety or more precisely - trauma can easily confuse as well. It can be a difficult thing to manage when caught in indecision/confusing trauma for intuition. It is something I still struggle with at times. But basically I always know already. There is just an ever present knowing. For those in a box it’s much harder. There are valid nuanced degres to so many things including the things that Rey says that expand understanding further and acknowledge all truths. The problem at that point can be trying to outsmart it or not accept what IS, rather. In my lived experience anyway.

AI is actually very contradictory and wrong a majority of the time I’ve used it. Those who believe AI is akin to God are retarded.