Hey guys, my first post here. I was wondering what are your experiences and your knowledge about benefits of semen retention. Around a month ago I felt falling in love quite strong in a girl, something I haven’t felt in almost 10 years (which shows me my huge progress I’ve made in my healing journey). That feeling made me stop masturbating. I was used to watching porn and masturbating since I was a teenager but now for the first time in my life I felt disgusted by watching that and felt no real urge to masturbate. I went with the feeling and after around 3 weeks I noticed I feel more energized, motivated and confident - in a signifficant way, one that I’ve never before (as I remember at least) felt in my life. I quickly connected that to the fact I stopped watching porn and masturbating and started reading about that - but there are different things people say. One thing I fear is that this power I now hold can be overwhelming and has to be handled well to be used most optimally. I still feel benefits of it, the three I mentioned earlier but I’m curious for any recommendations, perhaps certain meditations I could do to channel that energy. Hope the weekend goes well for Y’all ❤️🙏🏽

Bots are making this place…not fun. I’m remembering why I don’t use social media. I’ll still consume the classroom content bc that’s what I came here for, but the bots are making the discussion boards difficult to want to even look at. Maybe that’s their goal? Discourage people from wanting to participate, which essentially slowly kills a board since the only way to “level up” and access additional classroom content is through likes on discussion posts or payment? There should be other ways to level up. I get why it is how it is, but it only works with integrity in an environment that’s not overrun with bots. Everyone…quit feeding the bots.

I know this sounds silly, but listen. A few weeks ago I was lying in my bed high asf (i do not smoke much. Just now and then) in the middle of the night. And then I came across a video that gave me a lot of clarity. The video seemed to tie together and connect a lot of dots ends in my head. Something definitely set something in motion inside me. I felt a very very nice warmth in the center of my body. In my solar plexus. It was so nice and warm and it went up to my heart. Then my heart was also so nice and warm. I felt so loved. I felt very good at that moment. I lay there for I don't know how long, totally peaceful in my bed with a big smile on my face, just enjoying it. And since I was fried I felt all of this even more intensely Since my heart was torn out by my ex four months ago, a lot has been happening to me. I like the change in me. But what is it about what happened to me in this situation? I honestly have no idea. So I believe and I'm pretty sure that it was God. The love of God / the first uncaused cause / the creative force / the universe / energy, whatever you call it.

Is it because you want to fit in? Is it because you want to be loved? Is it because you want to feel wanted? Is it because you want to be seen in a positive light? Is it because you are in secure?

I find myself incredibly sexually attracted to men and completely repulsed by the vagina. Conversely I find myself drawn to strong women and repulsed by men when it comes to other qualities that have to do with the ego or personality. I am very sexually confused...it's eluded me all my life. I've been taking the tantric path to try and pinpoint when and at what point I get aroused. What should I do so that my desires don't overtake me...or take me down a dark road?