The man with whom I have three children and (still) share a flat manages my time. For eight years, more or less, I have been in a situation where my time depends on that person. He has financial problems and works a lot, but he forgets that at home there is a person who is with the children and simply wants to have a life of her own. I am almost never informed about what the day will look like, and if I ask, it usually ends in an argument. Besides, he is often aggressive towards the children (mentally, physically almost never, except for small slaps on the head or pulling their ears, what i cannot stand). Today, I suggested to him how we could deal with this so that everyone would have some free time, but he doesn't care. I am thinking about divorce, then someone else will decide when the father should take care of the children and when I should, and I will finally be able to do something, also financially. During these eight years, I have not established many deeper relationships because I was mostly at home with the children and learning to speak german, that is why i have not much help, companionship. Has anyone been through or witnessed such a situation and knows if there is any institution that can help in such situations on a legal basis without divorce? I really need stability in managing my time. Every day, I practise being present and not worrying about it so much, just being, but my nervous system has its limits. I am telling God what I need: time on my own and peace. However I am also looking for practical help so that someone will finally establish the time the father is with children. I know that it comes one day on its own, it is already coming...Much Love and many blessings:))

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Im 22 currently in college and I know there’s probably a lot of wise older people in here, so does anyone have any advice?

Hey everyone just wanted to share a preoccupation/feeling at heart that, after opening up my heart, I’ve been feeling so different. In a good way but I’m finding it hard to find motivation. Like now what? I get to decide what I want to be but I’ve detached from a lot of my past. Which also felt good. But I have no wants to surpass myself anymore, I don’t have the same impotent fuel which fueled me for a long time. (Or the attachment fuel). I’m currently not working, but have money to sustain myself for a while. I’ve let go of my past life so drastically in just a couple months. And I just feel like I’ve met with a wall, or a moment of isolation. I understand that I’m already were I’m supposed to be but I don’t know maby someone here can connect with my situation. Hope writing this opens me up to what God is trying to show me. God bless everyone.

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