Overwhelming urge to quit (aka. 'Tuesday')
That's right I put this under WIN. Let me get to it. Holy crap I woke up this morning completely overwhelmed saturated in in thoughts just starting to implement some of the things that I've learned about the cohort and I could see all the magic happening. I can see it. Everything is lighting up. And then Mr. quitting time comes along with punk ass "you know you don't have to do any of this. You really don't fucking need any of this like at all. Why the fuck are you talking to yourself? Why do you fucking get up at 6 AM and work until 1030 or 11 o'clock at night every freaking day do you think this is sustainable do you think this is a game? Do you think you're just gonna waltz in here and work and things are just gonna happen why don't you just fucking quit Brother? It's so much easier..." I've had these thoughts like every day and it's a constant battle. It's almost comical at this point. I kind of feel like maybe if you don't want to quit very often maybe we're not doing something right? Goose will talk about being busy as crap during the day but not getting anything done. I learned this lesson really early on as it just felt like you got 300 activities for the day and you're trying to figure out what the hell did I do? Focus that's what. I'm starting to spend more time at homebase I have to increase my posting because we have to carry that fire to keep going and tell somebody else can post and then we could start moving to a pinning and commenting and oversight versus daily operations inside. I get it. I see it.. I believe it. And yet that mine says, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah so when are you quitting because I got things to do? And you're seriously wasting my time.? like seriously you just quit so we could be done with this crap and we could stop having a stupid conversation. You and I endlessly every day at all hours of the night come on come on come on give it to me give it to me, give it give it give it give it give it give it gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme gimme.!!!!!!!