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Feb 3 (edited) • ⭐️ Win

Overwhelming urge to quit (aka. 'Tuesday')

That's right I put this under WIN. Let me get to it.

Holy crap I woke up this morning completely overwhelmed saturated in in thoughts just starting to implement some of the things that I've learned about the cohort and I could see all the magic happening. I can see it. Everything is lighting up.

And then Mr. quitting time comes along with punk ass "you know you don't have to do any of this. You really don't fucking need any of this like at all. Why the fuck are you talking to yourself? Why do you fucking get up at 6 AM and work until 1030 or 11 o'clock at night every freaking day do you think this is sustainable do you think this is a game? Do you think you're just gonna waltz in here and work and things are just gonna happen why don't you just fucking quit Brother? It's so much easier..." I've had these thoughts like every day and it's a constant battle. It's almost comical at this point.

I kind of feel like maybe if you don't want to quit very often maybe we're not doing something right? Goose will talk about being busy as crap during the day but not getting anything done. I learned this lesson really early on as it just felt like you got 300 activities for the day and you're trying to figure out what the hell did I do? Focus that's what. I'm starting to spend more time at homebase I have to increase my posting because we have to carry that fire to keep going and tell somebody else can post and then we could start moving to a pinning and commenting and oversight versus daily operations inside.

I get it. I see it.. I believe it. And yet that mine says, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah so when are you quitting because I got things to do? And you're seriously wasting my time.? like seriously you just quit so we could be done with this crap and we could stop having a stupid conversation. You and I endlessly every day at all hours of the night come on come on come on give it to me give it to me, give it give it give it give it give it give it gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme gimme.!!!!!!!

** for the record using voice chat to make that was exhausting lol*

annnnnnnnnyyyyyyyyywaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyy....... I cannot lose if I do not quit

We cannot lose if we do not quit!!!!

@Christine Knight IFS

I am sure some of you know her now and realize how fantastic she is and when I post these things on my community, she comes along and rallies you because we all need that. And so I'm here to support you in anyway I can so like if you're in a position where you just not having it and need someone to yap at ...

hit me up!!!! some days it's OK you gotta wake up, overwhelmed, not knowing exactly what to do or how to do it when that happens. I always think of it like being dropped off in the middle of a forest. If you got no sense of direction you can make a best guest, but you have to make a decision so you start walking if you start walking a certain way more information becomes revealed, but you wouldn't know that unless you started walking once you start walking in information gets revealed you might have questions. Those questions will lead you to different directions but at least you are doing something moving somewhere. This place can feel a lot like that a lot of times or maybe it's just me. I have no idea again. I'm still relatively new but consistent where I can't count....... yes I know but you say you want to give up because you said that's what I said and yes, you're right. I do even if I typed this right now there's a deep pit in my stomach cause it says it's fine. Go ahead.

But not today. Now the story gets more happy I promise you. lollolololol....kkkkk

Anyway, I had this older post from December and then...

@Benjamin Ross

Comes along joins up and says let's go000!!!!!! lol.

Here is a quick loom of it

https://www.loom.com/share/a5ad2662444e4a5f93d5c29036226721

An update just the other day:

I went for 42 but we are at well into 88 Days 16 Hours 0 Minutes 4 Seconds since november 1st.

All I am saying is that I do not know how to be any other way right now. I really do not know. And so if you ask me how I do this, I simply do not have an answer for you other than I do it because it's necessary not because I want to (I also want to).

That made it sound clinical but when you're trying to motivate yourself, sometimes you gotta tell yourself to shut your mouth and start listening to reason and realize what you're trying to do.

Sometimes you need to look around and take stock and what is important to you right now I look around (I'm in the living room right now set up on the kitchen table because my wife and daughter are in Florida for some school events while I go turbo mode, setting up the entire business model here at home in Tennessee).

And look around and I'm surrounded by love not just at home but in the community at large, not just here but just all over. I've been so absolutely maxxed out for so long last night I went to bed at like 10:35 PM.....an unheard of event :)

@Benjamin Ross

comes around again and says "back to the lab"

and of course I said "with a pen and a pad"

Because if you know you know.

PS. Reach out at any time - seriously I have literally have the most open door on the planet and I try to get it to everybody, which they all know it does take me time though :)

time to watch more cohorts (re re re watching them all now......lol)

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