Self Rule for Shitheads? Autonomy is a NEED for me. I was programmed it was wrong and selfish. I was taught it wasnāt possible anyway. Just slap a label called āunsolvableā on the autonomy box forget about solving it and let others rule me. āNow follow MY rules!ā Or⦠āDo what I want!ā ā¦almost always followed the discouragement to make my own rules in some fashion. My girlfriends (and others) wanted me to do what THEY wanted if I loved them. School wanted me to do well on tests, do college and trade my life for a wage so THEY would have stats to brag about. The guvmint, banks, car manufacturers and numerous other shittery manufacturers want me deeply in debt bondage to cushion their profits and power. The guvmint also wants me dependent on them for my healthcare, retirement income, safety and security. Just give up my self rule and responsibilty. Donāt worry. We love you. Now let us have your son so we can send him off to war. Fortunately⦠My soul starved for autonomy so desperately I was miserable. āLike being told food is ābadā for you - now give it to me!ā When the torture got unbearable⦠I just said āFuck it. Iām doing it my way. How much fucking worse could it be?ā If I died a miserable shithead at least it was my own damn fault! Turns out⦠ā¦for me Autonomy was like vitamin C after suffering with scurvy for decades. Every area of my life healed. But⦠I donāt run a ābusinessā like Iām āsupposedā to⦠I donāt run my personal finances by the book. Iām not a āgoodā husband or father by societyās standards. I certainly donāt need some mother fucker to tell me how to be a real man. And the worst of the worst? Iāve watched Breaking Bad four times! I may be a shithead, but Iām a happy shithead! Now⦠For fuckās sake⦠Donāt take anything in this post as a rule for YOU to follow. Except watch Breaking Bad at least once! š Rooting for Ya, Travis